really need money indeed!

how come recently i will be such poor?!

lolx

almost bankrap soon!

started to have a revision for myself..

although just a little bit..

but, it is a good starting point right?

faint..

i still in lazy mood.

holidays!

but, my holidays end up soon..

very very soon.

need to face my stpm SOON!

need to back to my "lovely school" SOON!

be an upper 6 student SOON!

suddenly, i feel stress..

because, i'm too lazy to do my revision..

>.<

ish!

i think i am the laziest student in my class..

argh~

wish that my holidays still have a long time to go..

but, for now!

i need $$

i want to go for vacation!

i don't want just window shopping!

ish~~~~

stop here.

bye.

3.16pm

16.12.2010

used to the life without many messages.

finally, i used to it!

sometimes, maybe i really feel moody for this.

but, it's okay for me already.

i can handle it better than before.

never have any argument between both of us before.

a good thing right?

haha

^^

recently, i need money indeed!

why?

because go for vacation.

change spectacles.

a blahs.

cost me a lot of money!

ish >.<

how poor i am now.

T.T

who can introduce any part time job for me?

besides waitress..

because my skin is sensitive.

>.<

i need $$ now!

urgh~

8.41pm

09.12.2010

i really thought that the problems between us had totally settle...
but, it's just an another new starting point between us..
tired...
what make me feel so tired?
maybe i know the reason..
maybe i don't..

happy moment had passed..

i never say to anyone about this..

keep in my heart..

because i believe that all of this will end someday..

i'm still waiting for the day~

once, my feeling had passed..

that's the end?

i don't know..

holidays begin..

woohoo!

will have a vacation with my classmate soon..

CAMERON!

i am coming soon!

2.32 am

21.11.2010

once, i read jia ying's blog..
my mood effected..
i start to countdown the days that she need to left here..
i feel so happy that she able to study oversea..
she ables to go for her dream..
but.. i really not willing for her to go so far away..
she is one of my best friends since form 3..

the days we always chit chat and play in "OUR" storeroom..

the days we tease each others

the days we skip our class together just for chit-chatting..

the days we having marching practice together..

the days we gossip others..

the days we said heart words to each others..

the days i cried on her shoulder..

she are the one..

that always accompany me when i was form 3..

she always comfort me and cheer me up!

she is the one who always help me to pass my days that full with tears..

a girl..

that always smile silly..

scratch her head when not understanding something..

will always trust what others say..

although it's just a joke..

that her..

my little jia ying..

how cute is she..

haha

xD

i like to play joke on her..

looking to her shy face..

>.<

how bad i am

=D

since, she left our secondary school..

we are getting less and less to contact each other..

but, she still are the one of my best friend..

because we have the same memories between each other..

OUR PONTENG DAYS!!!!

muahahahaha xD

anyway,

jia ying！

wish you all the best in the future..

=)

remember,

i am still here for you when you need any listener..

because i am lok

=)

haha

2.48 am

31.10.2010

settled my problem.
a new life and journey between both of us..
i am happy enough now!
because there is no more problem between both of us.
thanks GOD.
=)

for next of my topic that i wish to share with you guys is :

ta dra~~~

my exam result.

although just like SHIT!

but, still bit satisfied in it..

need to be more hardworking in the future.

as what poeple always say

NO PAIN, NO GAIN

muet : 194 (Band 4)

pengajian am : passed

chemistry : passed

mathematics : failed

feel sorry that i am not writing out my "pretty" result..

haha

1st time, i fail in my maths subject..

shame on me..

but, form 6's maths is totally difficult..

can't blame on anyone..

because i am lazy in doing exercise..

need to improve in this..

wow!

another hand is..

haha xD

i score 194 marks in my muet.

although it isn't a high mark..

but,

i am the top three in my class..

woohoo! congrates to myself..

need to pay m0re effort on it..

to score a higher marks!

i believed that i can do it..

next..

nothing to say about..

just..

i know i need to be more hardworking from now..

for my next government examination

STPM

but i haven't prepare to work hard yet.

but, i sure i will do this very soon..

a promise to myself..

for my future..

nothing to crap about..

just stop here..

nights buddy..

=)

keep on diet if i can.

pay more effort in my academics if i can trow off my lazy habits.

chee lok yee, ganbateh!

2.03 a.m

31.10.2010

exam exam and exam

my brain is blank without any knowledge.

damn!

i am stupid!
no doubt..

ish

>.<

how come i choose form 6 as my next journey?

shit!

the syllabus are too difficult for me

and, i am too lazy for studying.

is time to face the death!

feel despair

for everything.

luckily,

i have my 5 besties and my lovely family that always stand by me.

without them..

i will lost my way.

finally..

i heard the heart's word of him.

i cried.

i was so sad.

i need my besties at that moment..

i need them much.

>.<

i decided many thins at that particular moment.

i choose to be silent.

i appologized for nothing.

exam

just go away from me.

i have no any reading feel.

on the coming days.

i need to be more hardworking

because study is my responsibility.

for my pretty future.

stop crying

no more tears allowed here!

i need to be more and more tough to face the problem in the future alone.

8.32 pm

24.10.2010

不眠夜

好失望

没有人真正了解我

怎么

我在你们的心目中是如此

他

真正伤透了我

让我觉得没有自尊

让我无地自容

不明地掉泪

口说失望

其实心有多痛

你知道吗？

没有亲口听到他说那么一句话

如果有，我到底会怎样？

一句话

足以让我失望到无言

明，你不明白我心情。。

我可能能理解

可是

我认识了你那么久

想不到忍让会给你带来如此的感觉

仍然

是我的问题

好想反驳说

“我不是！我不是你说的那种人！”

但是

我竟然无力

流着泪

回想起一大堆东西

知觉得自己真的好傻

泪一直流

只觉得心越来越痛

回忆起一段不该想起的回忆

那段日子

那些时刻

好虚幻的回忆

好遥远的记忆

歌曲

嘲笑着我

向我示威的说

我是多么的失败

从来

不奢望你会为我说好话

但

没想到

你反而会认同他的说法

怎么他还是为我的心

开了一个裂缝

为我的心再次倒下血腥的红色液体

记住了这句话

记住了

我曾经以为当他误会了我

我会想尽办法去解释

可是

我没有

无力解释

不想解释

有用吗？

到最后还不是会被觉得自己在为自己辩护

自讨苦吃的事

不会再去做

当初是自己单纯

还是

无知

失望的感觉

是什么感觉？

我真的好失望

不过

有没有加点好在乎的感觉？

谁懂

划下眼泪的那刻

心死了

没有想到自己在他心目中变得如此糟糕

变得如此低贱

变得如此

这一刻

心在告诉我

“我死了”

为一部份的记忆还是回忆

而死了

会不会再复活?

呵呵

倒数自己的生日

嘉莹，谢谢你的礼物..

12.09.2010

02.38am

记住了今天

feel so tired

wasting my time to surd internet

but not doing my school work.

but for facebook

damn!

i am getting lazier.

i need to change my attitude by now!

be more hardworking!

that what i wish now~

hope to get at least 3.o in my final exam that coming soon!

chee lok yee, ganbateh!

my besties, ganbateh!

12.44pm

31.08.2010

happy national day

来到了我最爱的键盘面前

最爱的空间

最近不知道自己怎么了

总觉得自己变了

可是

却说不出什么

好多事发生

可是也觉得其实并不是那么多事发生

好奇怪

我背负了好多东西

没有像从前那样

一一向好姐妹诉说出来

好像觉得没有那个必要放着她们

但

其实

有很多事想对他们说

接触的时间少了

毕竟和他们不同班

好想念从前的日子

我们嘻嘻哈哈

傻里傻气地为了什么时都一起笑

欢呼我们的童年

我好想念与你们五个黏在一起的日子

好想与你们一起去云顶工作

共度欢乐时光

变的好辛苦

我要的

我想得

都不能实现

你们仍然是我最想倾诉的对象

仍然是我心目中的好姐妹

仍然是我一生中最要好的朋友

爱情慢跑？

我还不是时候说这一些

一波又一波的风浪

只会让一切没完没了

我有多努力

难道你没看见吗？

我心中的一切好像找一个人倾诉

好想好想

可是

我竟然一句话也说不出来

好难熬

被说不在乎的我

已经很努力很努力了

竟然

还是换来一句

没有为他着想

这个女朋友

似乎太失败了

为什么总是要等伤害了

才换来一句对不起

才换来一句“其实你的努力我都懂”

“其实你的在乎我都知道”

你说的一切

我都记得清清楚楚

可是我说的呢?

好累

我需要倾诉一切

我想说

我需要你们

需要你

我需要一个温暖的怀抱

9.34pm

30.08.2010

心情

飘浮不定

放弃和继续

其实

只是只在一句之差

你

这两天对我说的话

我紧紧记住了

我不会忘记

对

你说我们不能再向以前看了

我不能否认这句话是错的

既然

你酱说

我

也不会有异议

因为这是你要的

我说我想放弃了

好累

没有被顾及的感受

真的会很伤

我维护自己的感受维护到累了

你不保护我的感受

我惟有让自己的感觉不被受欺负

我对着你

竟然有种如同陌生人的感觉

淡淡的

此刻

觉得好舒服

在此刻的你

才是最在乎我的你

可是

是不是真的迟了？

这次的你

还是说了同一句

"我真的知错了"

看着你睡在我的大腿上

我的眼泪

哗啦啦的滑落

心真的很痛

那一刻

真的真的很痛

揉着你的头发

望着你

犹豫了很久

到最后还是说了一句

“我想放弃了”

不是我不坚持

是我坚持了多久

你是真的不知道

还是你选择不当一回事

最后

我松开你的手

你第一次把我的手捉得那么紧

真的只是第一次

那刻的我

手越被捉得紧

心就越痛

好平静

现在的心情总算平静下来

静得觉得很安宁

下着雨

我爱雨天

滴滴答答的

我知道眼泪不能洗走我的悲伤

我也知道雨天不能洗走我的伤痛

但是

它们能让我的那颗心比较平复

此刻

跟他犹如朋友间的交谈

我们的交谈里

都好平静

舒服

我舍不得

真的

所以

我没有狠心的做决定

如果

你真的在乎

那

我相信你会把我的信心重拾

会想尽办法为我的心疗伤

如果

你真的有心

15.08.2010
SUNDAY

01.07am

我要被爱
我要好好地爱

我要的
你知道吗？
我要的
你收到了吗？

你
忘记了
你答应过我不再对我发脾气
你
忘记了
你答应过我不再用不好的语气对我说话

这一切
就只是当时为了安抚我心情的话语吗？
难道
这一切的这一切
都只是虚假的？

这两天
你又开始了
难道
我的感受
就只不过如此？
难道
我的感受
就只是我的感受？

到底
当一个人累到极点时
会变成怎样？
会变成
坚强？
懦弱？
麻木？
习惯？
沉默？
还是，无力反驳？

我
还是我
原有的那个我

你
不是你
不是一开始我认识的你
不是从前的那个你

我们
还是我们吗？

10.40p.m
03.07.2010

14th - 16th of July will be my first test in my form 6 life.
my monthly test.
>.<

long time never having exam or test.
i'm not used to it.
need to start study study and study.
i want to try my best to get a good result in it.
i promised myself not to get a worst result in it.
my first test~
sigh```

finally, make a decision to take both subjects.
but, just for temporary.
i will decide later.
=)
if i am hardworking enough, maybe i will take both.
haha
xD
maybe~but, the percentage of happening this is lower than 0.1%.
because i am a lazy student.
>.<
haha

but, i promised.
i will be more hardworking.
haha
xD
recently, noticed that i become more hardworking than before.
although i am still the lazy girl.

i want to score at least B in all subjects in the coming test.
hope that my wish will come true.
=D

and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my pretty kee.
yesterday night, all of us celebrated birthday for her.
countdown for her.
haha
xD
6 of us captured together again.
weeeeeeee
<3
happy sei!

10.21 p.m
03.07.2010

pity me.
my picnic plan had canceled.
due to i have to attend the motor course.
damn!
the uncle never tell me that i need to go ipoh on saturday.
my plan had spoiled by him!!!
>.<

you all heard before?
a girl that never ride bicycle before go to learn how to ride a motor?
ish~~
i hurt my leg.
i really don't know how to ride at all.
damn!
quite moody and sad.

i can't ride normally.
>.<
almost fall from the motor.
ish~~~
pity me.

na na na~
forget about it.
>.<
i want to be more hardworking.
start to aim for my stpm now!!
weeee~~
i want to score well in it.
>.<
ish~

chee lok yee
ganbateh nehx.

08.17pm
21.06.2010

full.
just finish my delicious dinner
ASAM LAKSA MAGGIE MEE
=.=

tomorrow will go to picnic with my boy and my besties.
weeeeeee
sure i will have a nice day.
ngek ngek.
xD

but, i need to prepare sandwich.
lolx.
sui kee bully me.
>.<
she prepared drinks for us.
T.T

i not sure what shape will my sandwich is at the end.
but, haha.
i sure that i can make a delicious sandwich for you guys.
weeeee
if not tasty, hiak hiak.
you all also need to eat it.

force you guys eat.
hiak hiak.
tomorrow wanna capture many photos sin.
hehe
xD
let even, rachel, jia hui and yun nam envy har sin.
blek.
=P
who call you guys don't join us.
heng!
:P
hahahahahahahahahahahaha


end up here.

09.57pm
18.06.2010

i promised myself need to study during this holidays.
but, i fail to do it.
until now, i also never read any books.
except those books that i need to use in tuition classes.

argh~
how come i'm so lazy.
i broke my promise.

i just study my undang only.
finally, i took my undang test.
i passed with flying colours.
haha.
i passed with 49 questions.
i just did wrong one.
=D
weeeeeee

stop here.
nothing to write anymore.
nights buddy.

i love my baby.
i love my dear.
i love my ji mui,
i love my baby dear ji mui.
=)



17.06.2010
10.41pm

tired day.

recently, flu and flu again.
ish!!

are you getting bored?
are you getting tired?
are you not so care anymore?

ish```
i hate this feelings
i hate i hate i hate!!!
what can i do?

cry?
shout?
or???

keep in my heart.
all in my heart.
>.<

01.31a.m
09.06.2010

ya.
you're correct.
maybe, i will totally agree with you.

one sentence.
really can change my mind.
you words really can do so.

your decision. . .
is that mine also?
your view. . .
is that mine also?
maybe.
but, i won't lost myself.

if that is your wish, i will do so.
if that is what you hope, i will do so.

man, please.
i want to be more tough.
before i success to be a tough girl, please don't hurt me anymore.
>.<
i can't stand it.


09.59pm
31.05.2010

i love him.
he is mine.

i'm really happy when be with him.
he always cheer me up and comfort me.
he always gives support to me and lend me his shoulder to me to lay on.
he is mine!!!
no doubt.

i like to hold his hand.
i like to hug him.
i like to sleep on him.

conclusion is i love him!!!!
=D

05.13pm
31.05.2010

真的是时候减肥了。
赘肉集中在腹部。
讨厌！

最肥的时期，应该就是现在吧。
减肥减肥减肥！
肥成功不可。。。
努力当中~
应该写即将努力。

番薯他，也讲我肥了。
还说“这次的你真的是时候减肥了”
以前就算再肥，他也不给我减。
我想这次我真的真的肥了很多。。。。
呜~
谁叫我爱吃东西。。。
>.<

今天去喝表姐的喜酒。
很多亲戚讲我肥了~~~
自尊心受创。。。

哈哈
没关系，我是朱乐宜哦。。
如果我真的要减，没有东西能难倒我的！
一定可以的！！！
加油加油！
XD


11.44 pm
30.05.2010

fever.
long time never sick ler.
but, i not wish to sick now.
i want to be a healthy girl.

```sigh```
what should i do now?
i don't know.
go for actuarial science directly?
or stay in seri kampar to continue my form 6 life?

i don't want to waste my 2 years.
4.0
it's hard to achieve it.
i'm lazy and not clever.
impossible for me to get this score.
blahssss
what should i do?

anybody can help me?
give some advises to me?

GOD, please give me energy.


08.16pm
30.05.2010

na na na .
na na na.
na na na na na na na.

hehe.
recently, i always singing this song.
haha.
a song that sing by BARNEY.
don't you guys know who is him?
hehe.
my idol when i was a little kid.

BARNEY, a purple color dinosaur.
i love him much when i was studying in kindergarden i think.

hehe.
my mood is definitely good right now!
hehe.
don't know why.
but, it good for me right?
hiak hiak!!

tomorrow, holidays!!!
weeeee````
no need go for school.
i'm so so so happy!
XD

at least no need face those malays guys.
i didn't look down on them.
but, i just don't like they always kacau me!!!
shit!!!
i am jie jie larx okay?
>.<
small di di, study well larx.
don't kacau me again!!!!
if not sure i kill you next time!!!

and please larx.
where is your manners?
guys can go to female's washroom?
damn!!!
hate most!!!!
as what joekee scolded them
haha.
" tak ada baca ka lu?"
good sentences!
thumbs up!!!!
everybody please give a clap for my dearest joekee.
weeeee!!!

okays.
ends up here.
have a nice day everybody.
=)


09.07pm
27.05.2010

you.

is it our class, pra u bawah sains alfa will vote for a new monitor again?
is it you will leave here soon also?
is it you will continue your journey at another places?
is it a journey without me?

today.
i know.
i realized.
i noticed.
you happy when be with them.
everytime they ask you whether you want to go out with them?
sure you will ask when? okay ark.

but, when i asked you,
errr. . . i can't promise first. tell you later okay?
the difference?
you see it?

ya.
as what you always tell me.
" i don't want to promise first because i don't want let you disappointed again. "
maybe it's true.

but, sometimes i really do hope that can hear you say
" okay ark. as long as you feel happy. "

ya.
i'm happy when be with you.
you let me feel warm.
let me feel comfortable.

but, sometimes, you really do make me feel hurt.

guy, i'm not tough enough.

11.54pm
26.05.2010

以前，我说我放下了，到后来才发现那是欺骗自己的行为。。。
但是现在长大了，思想比较成熟了，知道什么是负责。。。
“放下”，不随便乱说，说了就要对自己负责任。。。

如果真的放不下就大方承认吧，这不是什么丢脸的事。。。

因为，“放不下”比“放下”需要更大的勇气。。。

如果有人能为一段没有结果的爱情， 无期限的等待却不怕会换来更多的无奈的话，那么他/她的勇气真的能让人佩服。。。
他/她， 用时间和青春做赌注，哪怕最后伤痕累累，“放不下”的精神已叫人敬佩。。。

“放不下”的确没有什么可耻的，欺骗自己才是可悲的。。。
许多人往往深信自己真的放得下的时候才猛然发现，其实伤害自己最深的还是那想要挽回自己面子的自尊心。。。

能放下是件好事，如果真得放不下也不需要感到难过。。。
让时间帮你决定一切。。。
也许你会说，“时间，我都不知给了多少，等了多久，但伤口依然存在。”， 但是，请给点耐心， 时间真的能 淡化一切。。。
也许以后想起时，伤口还是隐隐作痛的， 但是到时候身边可能多了个人来分担。多了个人分担，痛也会减少，直到伤口结巴，再变疤痕，最后变成回忆的一部分。。。

给点时间“时间先生”吧， 它永远是最好的心理治疗师。。。

i read these sentences in one blog.
i love it much.
ya~
now only i realize and notice
放不下真的比放下还需要勇气

getting more and more of my classmates leave our LOVELY school soon.
they continue their journey with following the aim they set for themselves.
congrates to them.
i wish to do so also.
>.<
MUCH!!!

i wish to leave this school.
i wish to study what i wish to study.
i wish to study actuarial science.
i wish to be an actuary.
i wish to study oversea.

envy.
i hope that i can do what i wish to do.
study what i wish to.

chatted with ke xin and keen leong.
ya~
really make me have an impulse to leave here as soon as possible.
keen leong, he will studied in melaka soon.
he chooses law as his choice.
envy him.
can straightly what he wish to study.
congratulations man!
ganbateh ya~
haha.
in the future, i will find you if i need your help!
=D

maybe he's right.
he told me why don't i leave here also?
why need to waste 2 years time in form 6?
since i have an aim already.

what should i do?
i don't know.

i wish to be a kid again.
a moment that full with happiness.
didn't have any things that need to worry.
just worry no sweets to eat.

but, now. . .
everything are different.
i need to think for my future.
i need to think what should i study.
i need to make a correct choice.
i can't make any mistakes in choosing courses.
if not, sure i will regret someday.

sigh. .
anyone can give any view to me?
i need some advise right now.
i'm . . .
i am lost!!!
i don't know how to choose a way that i should go for.
a journey that i should continue.
:(

GOD, give me energy please.

10.52pm
26.05.2010

maybe . . .

maybe. .
everything will be fine.
if i didn't mention about anythings.
if i keep my feelings inside my hearts.
if i just pretend that's nothing for me.
all of this. . .
also maybe. . .

if, too much of maybe happen between us.
what will happened in the end?
give up?
continue?
or?

recently, you had changed.
maybe just for me.
maybe, just me sensitive.
maybe, you just too tired.
maybe, you think that's nothing for you.
maybe, all of these also not important.

but for me. . .
i will keep on thinking. . .
maybe, you are too tired recently.
maybe, you had bored in this relationship.
maybe, you not as love me as before.
maybe, i'm annoyed.
maybe, you too lazy and bore in comforting me anymore.

or, maybe. . .

today, zuki said she read my blog.
she also felt that when the moment he be with them, he feels happier than with me.
not only me felt that,
others also.
maybe, i'm sensitive?
perhaps?

today, because you felt that you are too over when blaming her.
then you keep on tease her to make her happy.
actually, i'm not too care about that.
i just pretend i see nothing.

but why?
recently, when i'm not happy or angry.
you didn't bother me.
or even show your face to me?
who am i?
i am your girl right?
how come when she is not happy you can use so much of energy to make he laugh.
but. . .
i can't?

FAILURE!
i am!!!

recently, i try my best to control my temper although you impatient when comforting me.
i wish to cry much at the moment.
my tears rolling in my eyes.
my heart is bleeding.
my mood is affecting.
but. . .
did i blame anything?
did i scolding?
did i yelling just like a mad woman?

i kept all of these in my heart.
deep in my heart.
a place that nobody can hear my voice.
except me.

today, finally i spoke out my feelings.
i thought i will felt better.
but,
i don't.

when i saw your videos and photos. . .
the videos and photos with your gangs.
i smile and laugh at first.
because i saw you smile happily, laugh cheerfully.
but at last. . .
why i feel moody and wish to cry?
haha
i also no idea with it.

don't you know your action is disappointing me?
don't you know i'm not happy?

fine.
chee lok yee is tough enough!!
cheer up cheer up my BABY! cheer up cheer up CHEE LOK YEE !!!
=D

24.05.2010
10.25pm

chee lok yee says she is on diet.
but, just now she having steak as her dinner.
RED WINE STEAK.

she needs to attend her relative's wedding party on the coming week.
but, perut buncitnya semakin besar.
damn!!!

on 29th of may, she needs to go to kl to attend her cousin sister's wedding party.
on 5th of june, maybe she going to 117 penang.
on 6th of june, she need to go to her cousin's brother wedding dinner also.
>.<
but, her diet plan still not success yet.
no idea.
she loves eating.
she loves food.
she loves snacks.

anyway, she just simply says she on diet.
but, actually . . .
T.T
nevermind, just set it as her target first.
when she free, she will do it!
=D


chee lok yee
ganbateh nehx!!!
=)


12.23am
23.05.2010

我开始怀疑
现在我做的选择是不是一个对的选择
是不是一个适合我的选择？


06.08pm
21.05.2010

don't you know i need what?

yesterday, you hurt me.
my heart was damn pain.

for me, i think the time when you gather with you gangs is more happy than with me right?
i don't know why i will think so.
but, through the photo, i can feel it.

hope that all of this just my illusion.
moody.

04.57p.m
21.05.2010

卑鄙六人组

ＣＡＰＴＡＩＮ　：　ＹＡＮ　ＪＯＥ　ＫＥＥ
ＶＩＣＥ　ＰＲＥＳＩＤＥＮＴ　：　ＣＨＥＥ　ＬＯＫ　ＹＥＥ
ＡＨ　３　：　ＣＨＯＮＧ　ＹＩ　ＭＡＮ
ＡＨ　４　：　ＹＥＯＮＧ　ＹＵＮ　ＮＡＭ
ＡＨ　５　：　ＳＩＮ　ＳＥＥ　ＴＥＮＧ
ＡＨ　６　：　ＬＥＥ　ＪＩＡ　ＨＵＩ


有谁能比我们卑鄙？
哈哈
XD

a news for me.
i don't know it is good for me or bad.

heard from soek ting
i be the environmental chairperson of omega club since 2 days ago~
argh~
is it good for me?
i didn't have any experience on it.
i worry i can't handle it.
who can help me?

projects relate with 3R and environment waiting for me.
hope that i can solve it smoothly.
hehe.

anyway, i will try my best to do what should i do.
the function on 05.06.2010, should i go?


12.29a.m
17.05.2010

i thought today you will call me go along you.
today is 14th of the month.
i really do hope that i can always stick with you.
but, i can't.

you celebrate birthday for him.
everybody ask me am i following.
i don't know how to answer.
you guys sure suppose thought that i am going right?
but, i'm not i think.
haha

countdown the days of announcing the results of JPA.
but, nothing i can do.
everytime, when i think about it.
start to be moody without reason.
just hope that can lay on you.

you promise will celebrate with me today.
but, now. . .
nevermind.
i can pass by myself.
muahaha XD
this is me. real me.
i am CHEE LOK YEE!!!

finally passed my orientation week.
a gloomy week.
yeah!
woohoo~ at least no need to play under the sun.

haha~
it's time for me to show off sikit!
i am the MOST ACTIVE FEMALE STUDENT during this week.
upper six student had chosen me to be the one.
what a suprise for me.
i got 2 test pads and 2 school badges.
haha
give a big hands for miss CHEE please.
=D


stop blogging here.
=)


08.13pm
14.05.2010

对不起，我只能这样说。
因为，我开始有了决定。
一个自私的决定。


JPA
一个我一直朝着去的方向，一个我希望能够得到的奖学金。
我，得不到。
失败了~
因为，我选错科。
他，有了面试的机会。
等待着去实现他的梦想。
如果，JPA说YES...
他就可以朝着他的方向飞行，而我只能留在原地。


从小学，我只希望能去新加坡继续我的学业。
但是，长大后才发觉自己已经变得贪心。
想去更远的地方深造。
USA, NEW ZEALAND, JAPAN, KOREA...
甚至更多更多。。。


他，选了engineering...
我好希望好希望他能的到JPA。
但，他不知道我真的好不舍得他。


我知道如果他一走，我的步法根本再也跟不上他。
我不能做绊脚石。
我只想他能有更好的前途，更好的未来。
虽然，我真的很不舍得，但也只能这样了不是吗？
之从那天，我就知道一切都可能改变了。
我们，不能再走在一起。


希望，他真的能！
就算。。
我们要分开。


你，要加油知道吗？
虽然，你不会看到~




09.18pm
13.05.2010

finally back to kampar
a lovely place for me
* home sweet home *

hu~ ending.
yeah yeah!
quite happy
back to my lovely home
no need to face those "LOVELY" customers.
what a good news for me.
=)

and another ending for something also.
yups!
totally ending.
although i don't know is it good for me
but anyway, is shouldn't think about it already.
because not related to me anymore.
and i can't and don't want think about it anymore.

anyway, school will reopen soon.
yeah yeah!
new life begin!
i gonna be more hardworking to achieve my target for studying oversea.

good luck for myself.
=)


新的旅程代表另一段成长的开始
朱乐宜，加油！

2.58pm
09.05.2010

新年快乐

各位各位，新年快乐！

不过，为什么今年的新年，我不觉得开心？
反而有一丝丝寂寞，闷闷不乐的感觉。
是因为整个新年里我都不在自己的家里过。
这算是离乡背井，独自过新年吗？
少了拜年的日子，聚餐的日子，好象却很少了什么。

当然，红包也自然少了~
但，这不是最重要吧~ 只想大家一起热热闹闹地过新年。
不想工作！不想不想不想！
讨厌！回去又得对着那班人。
烟味陪我度过新年就有啦！

多想身边有一个人疼疼自己~
爱惜自己，关心自己~
那个人~其实自己心里已有人选~
只是，根本没可能,不是吗？
呵呵~（苦笑）

怎样都好~
祝大家新年快乐！
大家心想事成，天天快乐！

也祝我自己能愿望成真！=)

11.11p.m

13.02.2010

he told me to settle the problem.
but, i have no guts to ask the truth.
i'm useless!!!



or maybe i should listened what he told me.
not to think anymore.
just concentrate in my working.
but, hope that he will remember what he promised me.
not to tell others.
but, i trust that he won't tell anyone.
i trust him well!!!



sorry for disturbing just now.
anyway, thanks a lot!
thanks for become my listener.




hope that everything will get fine.
i really wish to.
i wish that there will always have a guy, a shoulder for me to lie on.




04.08a.m
13.02.2010

isty

迷失方向

前面的路，我该怎样走？
前面的障碍，我该如何一一斩除？


我的懊恼，谁懂得了？
我只想找一个避风港来聆听我的世界。
你，愿意当吗？



13.02.2010
02.34p.m

结束

假期结束了，剩下的却是复杂的心情。

今年，不能去亲戚家拜年，更不能与朋友嘻嘻哈哈地聚在一起非法赌博。

唯有在云顶那里看着人家赌博。

红包肯定也比往年很少很多。

可怜的我。

第一年不在自己的家乡过年，感觉好不自在~

少了新衣陪伴的新年感觉少了什么，换上了制服陪我度过这十五天。

我，不喜欢。

没有橘子，饼干，汽水，花生。

换来了浓浓的二手烟。

讨厌！！！

今天的心情，复杂的很简单。

比起从前，这算得了什么？

再复杂的心情都过了，这一点我会不习惯吗？

没可能。

不过，问自己的最内心。

到底自己是不是真的想习惯。

答案永远等于零~

反正，不重要吧？

最近，爱上了手写日记。

没办法~

云顶没的上网~

唯有用手代替。

很久没有书写了，虽然比较累，但是却觉得比较真实。

跟自己有更亲切的感觉。

不想做工。想一直留在金宝。

想时常吃妈妈煮的饭，妈妈煲的汤。

妈妈煮的糖水。

爱时常跟一班朋友出来喝茶的日子~

我怀念中学的生活

实在太想念以前的日子。

能回到过去吗？

如果可以时间倒流，我愿意！

13.02.2010

01.05a.m

life

这就是生活吗？告别了中学生涯的生活？

工作工作还是工作...

就没别的吗？

厌倦这种生活。想念中学时期嘻嘻哈哈又一天的中学生活。

沉闷

面对的，不再是老师。

每天对着一大堆赌了又赌的赌徒

粗口就像三字经一样背到滚瓜烂熟

手掌像铁钢那样硬，输钱就拍桌子，手一点都不痛吗？

吵死人

你们的肺时常都去过滤的吗？

我的可没有。

我还年轻，不想把我的肺给弄的乌烟瘴气，更不想让自己短命几年。

十个有八个都吸烟的。

女生样子再美都没办法啦，肺一点都不美了。

嘿嘿~

show off下先。

本人在training时期获得最高分，在整个training里获得97.5分。

那天我真的是爽到爆，开心到~

就像考到第一名的感觉。

人生中第二次的第一名。

爽死~ 呵呵

第一天进bid被AM赞。

开心开心~

他跟我说很久都没有看过第一天做工就将定的女生。

哈哈。

开心~

好了。

出去吃饭先，先写到这里。

=)

12.02.2010

07.20p.m