一句话

one sentence

can change any results

one sentence

may bring joyness or sadness towards you

just one sentence

everything also can change

today

mr. XXX told me that he likes me

i just felt like "huh?"

don't know what response should i gave him

he asked me whether i like him too?

i answering nothing

because i don't know

suddenly

he said let's dating

again "huh?"

you told me that you don't want dating

but now you asked me this question.

questions mark flowing in my brain again.

but suddenly

you said that you still love her

again "huh?"

i don't know what happened to you

but loves is not a joke

please respect to it

but

suddenly

my tears dropped

i can't explain to myself what cause this happen

just except its appearance

but

i look down to myself

haha

yesterday

organised a concert celebration at my house

barbeque

actually i was not so enjoy in it

maybe its not so interesting as what i imagined

maybe i was too tired

but

when i was not happy my best friend accompanied beside me

thanks

just you can noticed that i was not happy

thanks for cheering me up

i having happy time with you

really

i do enjoyed in it

but

today

you spoiled my mood

how come?

anyway

forget about it

i just want to let all the things end up here

end up in my blog space

after the one sentence

there been a thick wall between us

you can't break it down

and

i won't let you to break it down also

i wish that it will appeared forever

that's the end for us

no more story

sorry

few hours more need to go for school again

my holidays had ended up too

12.04 p.m

28.09.2009

24.09.2009

just now

mr. P called me

we chit chatting through phone

having a lot of fun

he is funny

he is the one who always accompany me these days

he also is theone who care about me

damn appreciate our relation

you're my best friend

=D

today

erm, nope

should say yesterday

i was not feeling good at tuition there

to what you had done

why need to do that?

if you really don't want to let me know something

just go ahead

tell her when i'm not around there

but not in front of me

don't do this such of things

please care about my feelings

teng know it

really not syok for that

i think you should know this type of feelings

because we all know you well

if this happened to you

sure that you will feel angry and bo syok

i know i shouldn't be like that

but i really beh syok lar man!

please don't repeat it again!
argh~

but anyway

forget about it

now i feel better

at least won't feel not syok lur

because chit chat with teng and nam just now

hehe

we play see-saw at the playground nearby my house

hehe

quite happy

and add on chatting with mr. P just now

but i really do mind about what you had done just now

please

don't repeat it again!

i hate it!

please imagine that this happen to you

sure you feel beh syok also.

hu~

continue watch movie sin

hehe

excited now

wait for bbq night

a celebration for our concert

hehe

sure have a lot of fun ler

=)

and pau ling

happy birthday to you

1.51a.m

25.09.2009

心底话

谁听得见心里头最深处的一句话？

我听不见

“噗嗵噗嗵”声音的背后

隐藏着什么?

一句哈哈大笑？

还是哭泣声？

无奈

2.24a.m

21.09.2009

20092009

happy 20092009

today is 20.09.2009

today maybe a special date

but not a special day for me

just as usual

go for meeting with me st.john's committee

tuition

slept

that's all

siens dou

never study these few days

playing playing and playing

wasting my time to do something that useless

my mood affected by someone again

don't know what you thinking at all

why suddenly will like this and sometimes like that?

weird you know?

your caring and concerning makes me feel confused

stop doing it please

i know that you are not cup of my tea

and we are not suit for each others

as what i told my besties, we won't be couple

is that what i wish?

i think so

i also don't know

but for sure

for now, i not love you at all

yesterday

you asked me that whether i love you?

my answer is you think yourself

because i really don't know how should i answer you

but i know this answer is not important right?

sometimes your caring really make me feel touching

except my boyfriend

you are the one that will make me feel want to rely on

you are the one always listen to what i want

but i keep on tell myself all of this just an illusion

suddenly feel so upset

no reason

just moody

too much of things i want to say

but i don;t know how should i say it out

just stop here

lokyee is confusing

10.34p.m

20.09.2009

my birthday celebration

these are some of the photo that we captured today

make a wish.

see~ what i am doing. =_=

me and my birthday cake

all of us =D

=_= funny look

what espression is nam?

took in west lake

birthday's present from kee. haha

my birthday cheese cake. delicious

i love this pig most!

bin and me

teng and me

huh? what happened? man and me

kuso emo. haha

joe and me

hehe. kee want us to take this picture

soo and me.

nam and me

-.- what photo is this

kee and me

i'm extremely happy today!
i never been so happy for long time ago

18.09.2009 (8.30pm) - 19.09.2009 (2.00 a.m)
thanks a lot, my beloved dears
although it was late
but
this is not a problem
important is
you guys celebrated my birthday for me
i enjoyed the celebration much
at first
i really thought today was just a celebration for finishing examination
haha

at first,
we went to Big A Kopitiam
chit chat around there
captured here and there
having a lot of fun

i having a lot of fun with you guys
full of joy
but
the things that imperfect is
hui, one of my besties
can't join us today
=(

next location
WESTLAKE
don't know suggested by who
went there for cutting cakes
capturing and chit chatting there again
haha
they say i sot jor
just like a crazy and having mental's problem geh woman
haha
no idea
because i was too happy on that moment
dancing and turning round and round
haha
i think today we captured around 200 photos
haha
crazy right?

i believed that no one can describe how happy i am
the famous writer in this world also unable to describe it
although just a simple celebration
but just because celebrated with you guys
i already satisfied with it
a birthday cheese cake
a birthday song
that's enough for me
really

this year
i got a cheese cake again
haha
thanks soo for "informing" them
i really do love cheese cakes and chocolates
haha

kee
nam
man
teng
soo
joe
bin
kong ( our camera man)
thanks for all the things that you all prepared for me today
i really do appreciate in what you all had done
that's nice

great moment with you all.
i love you all much
again
i hope that we will be best friend till the end of my life
you all
located in my heart since long time ago
i love you

you guys delighted my life
cherish my life
painted my life and memories with colours
i can't live without you guys
you guys really do important for me

THANKS GOD
for giving this such of best present in my life
the best
you guys are the present that gave by God
you guys don't know how much i love you
but
what can i say is
i really do love you guys deep from my heart


thanks again for celebrating for me
>_<
muakxxxxxxxxx

lokyee was extremely happy today !!
=D

3.33a.m
19.09.2009

找回自己

萍

特地写给你的

呵呵

觉得奇怪吧？

其实

我们之间的关系没有像以前那么要好了

所以

并不清楚你发生什么事了

呵呵

所以

没什么意见可以给你

但是

只想让你知道

朋友无所不在

我

无所不在

呵呵

看着你的不落格

感觉上

你却少了真正的笑容

希望自己的直觉是错的

从前的那个坚强的你

去了那里？

那个不容易掉泪的你

去了那里？

萍

勇敢地面对一切

找回你自己

一个真正的自己

04.01a.m

18.09.2009

不想长大

身边的事物

身边的烦恼

都随着自己年龄的增长而变得复杂

接触的事物越多

自然的

面对的东西就越多

而思绪就渐渐地变得复杂不堪

就像以前那样

一句简单的

“我喜欢你”

是多么容易得从口中说出

如今许要多少勇气

多少的考量

才能从口中吐出这一句话？

岁月不留人

时间无情的流去

怨得了谁？

感慨地说

“我不想长大”

3.41am

18.09.2009

爱

终于考完预考了
赫赫
不过真正的战争
现在才开始
呜~

不知何时开始
爱情
对我而言
只是一个形容感情的词汇

是我真的看得开了吗？
还是不愿意再去相信？
其实
问自己受过多少次伤？
真正的伤
我想
只有一次吧
但
那一次早已足够
已经足于自我于死地

细水长流？
还是
轰轰烈烈，刻骨铭心？
你会怎样选？
我能不能同时选两个
不过
怎么别人都说他们不能共存？
事实
真得如此？

心是空的吧？
不知何时开始
心里开始起了这个问题
但就是没有一个想要的答案
永远处于不确定的状态
但
我早已放弃回答这个问题

如今
没有特别的牵挂
没有特别的感动
也没有特别的回想过去
算是成功了吧？
赫赫

在我还未再遇到自己爱的人时
爱情
就请远离我吧

这段文字是给某个人的
我的部落格是我的地方
我爱写什么是我的事
而
我跟你已经是完完全全过去式的事
都一年前的事了
怎么咬着我不放？
怎么每当我对你的反感化为零时
你总是要把那些感觉拉回出来
没完没了
累不累

一个时常犯错的人
不但不改过
甚至还要一只勾起他人的错处
这样才会令你良心过的好点对吗？
才会让你自己觉得没那么内疚对吗？
别将我和你一起比下去
我和你不一样

至少之前
那段时间
我真的试过对你一心一意
只是你的幼稚和不成熟
让我实在受不了
这才是为什么我们分开的原因
不想多解释
你爱怎样想是你的事
反正
你就不是一个好男人

还有
别再说一些有完没完的话
既然你答应了对她好点
就别再三心两意了
有多爱我？
都是你要挽回面子的话
别傻了
不爱就是不爱
逞强些什么？

原来
我跟你之间的回忆是零
不
应该是说骗局吧?
你的骗话实在多得不胜枚举
但
我却一点也不心痛
不难过
我想你也明白原因了吧？

好了
就这样


赫赫
期待
明天晚上
琪约了我们出去喝茶
好久没试过六个一起出动了
哈哈
除了昨天
赫赫

开心
友谊万岁！


4.48p.m
17.09.2009

失常

我失常
奇怪

是习惯了你的存在？
还是喜欢上了？
怎么
心情因你而起伏了？

别对我那么好
我
不想心动


11.07p.m
16.09.2009

16.09.2009

today damn syok
woohoo
just now went to pasar malem wit my 5 besties
kee
nam
teng
man
hui

kee drove us there by her butt butt car
hehe
happy moment along the way go to pasar malam
freaking funny

when we reached there
duh
we just stepped into the field
rain fall heavily
how come
=_=
so no idea lur
rushed back to her car and chatted inside the car
** funny **

wait for almost half an hour
rain still fall heavily
@_@
so we decided go to hui's house
gathering there
haha
seems like our exam had over
happy moment
i really do like and enjoy the moment gather with them
i love them much!

but most syok is
muahaha
today morning
6 of us gathered together in the hall when recess time
discussed about how to go pasar malam
lol
but we really do enjoy
and at that time
that miss XXX came again
try to join us
pity her
haha
none one of us bothered about her
but
the thing make me felt yucks is
" she hugging one of my besties "
duh
hou sum lar
nobody want to choi you then jau go away ler
still do this such things
let me feel more bo syok with you
muahaha
although she hugging one of us
but we still didn't give any response to her
muahahaha
because she really not our gangs
our topic is not suit for you!
muahaha
syok man!
at last she also gave up and back to her place
damn syok!
haha
i'm a bad woman right?
but as what teng said
she really not the type that can be one of our gang
because its seems weird

my mood is good
BEST
muahaha
6 of us also long time didn't hang out and gather together
today i really enjoy
hehe
whatever lur
you all are located in my heart since long time ago

tomorrow will be the last day of my trial
woohoo
at last i can say bye bye to my trial
but
the real war is waiting for me
the ending of the trial = the starting point of my WAR
wu~
T_T


10.32p.m
16.09.2009

thanksssssssssssssssssss

specially for someone ler
if not he say me yun wong him again
if not just blahs me ler
lolx
haha

yesterday
an unknown number message me and greeted me
at midnight 12.00
i asked who are you
then
that ba bei jing still called me to check myself wer
ish~
anyway
i still say thanks to him
see
how good is my manners
muahahaha

in this 24 hours
i thought this guy totally forget my birthday jor tim
still keep on blaming him in my heart
>_<
muahaha
sorry sorry
sorry for that
know you have my heart ler
thanks for greeting ler

touching ler
gam dong ler
tears almost drop from my eyes jor
haha
T_T
thanksssssssssssssssssssssssssss

see
i treat you so good ler
mr. 014- XXXXXXX
haha
you know i'm saying you right?

at last
praise har you sin ler
if not yao not happy ler
haha
"THANKS, LENG ZAI"
LOONG


he want me to add his name ler
=_=
haha


1.04a.m
15.09.2009

BIRTHDAY

14.09.2009

my birthday
a silent birthday
no celebration's birthday

first time
first year
without any celebration
without cutting any cakes
without hanging with my friends

why my birthday will fall on the trial exam seasons?
everybody also busy in exam

since 12.00 a.m
i received a lot of messages
a lot of wishes
even calls
i was so happy at that moment
extremely happy!
thank you
i really do appreciate what you all sent to me

but today
my mood was not so good
almost cried
maybe just because no any celebration
no cakes
stupid right?
but luckily still have someone sang birthday song to me
touching man!

chee wai
thanks a lot for preparing bread as my breakfast
haha
this is what he told me
" first time i prepared breakfast for others geh j er"
>_<
touching man!
although just a bread but it is so delicious for me!
thanks

secondly
sze yin
jun yap
ming chuan
thanks again for buying me a present
haha
two little bears
pairing
when i will get a partner just like the bears?

thai ming said he want to buy a triangel for me again wer
=_=
because he said the triangel that he bought for me last year is not work
because until now i also haven't dating yet
muahaha
sui gOr
anyway, he said later he will bought a present for me!
=D
thanks first lur~

and
jia ying
at last i opened the gift that you gave me last two weeks
hehe
thanks

and my dearest mah zai and daughter, rachel!
thanks for buying the t for me as my birthday present!
thanks a lot you guys really care about me
duh~
gam dong dou~

but
seems like still left something
a complete birthday song
a birthday cake
a birthday wishes
a birthday celebration

damn!
my mood is totally affected now!
a silly guy name lee kai choo
don't know who lai geh!
scolded me in msn
damn him!
don't know what happened
an annoying person
everytime also msn when i online
but never replied
suddenly scolded me wer!
sucks!
damn damn damn!
birthday still need to scold but an abnormal guy
suen ler
don't bother this type of nonsense guy
chi sin!
lee.kaichoe@yahoo.com
this guy
don't know who lai geh
@_@

suen ler
forget about it
my birthday end here?
sigh
ending with a sigh

anyway
nights

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to lokyee
happy birthday to you
a song for me

that's my birthday?

11.11p.m
14.09.2009

容不下你

首先

要给个热烈的掌声L

plak plak plak plak

为什么呢？

因为他是第一个发觉

也是唯一一个发觉的人

果然

只有他一个人看得出

或许

如果我没跟婷提过

她也不会发觉

还是L厉害

哈哈

我就是容不下他

就像L说得那样

我们比连续剧还好看

真的一个幸灾乐祸的家伙

不过

还是他眼利

今天

其实不是我不想和你们一起读书

只是

看到他坐在那里

我真的坐不下去

宁愿一个人自己静静的坐着读书

可是

心里就是有不愉和不安的感觉

只是

你们从来都没有发现到

原来在一年前

在友情里受的伤早已比在爱情里受的伤深

但

没有埋怨

只是心痛

有时忽冷忽热的态度

真得令我心痛到不行

能找谁说？

这

都是我心甘情愿

因为除了家人

你们五个早已是我生命中的不可缺少的主角

我就是那么喜欢你们！

缺一不可

常常

我的感受没有被顾虑到

是我太会掩饰自己

还是你们没有像顾忌的念头？

我不晓得你们知道我所写的一切后会有什么感想

但

我只希望我写的这一切不会惹起任何的争执或误会

你们

真的不知道你们对我多么的重要

琪

惠

雯

婷

楠

我爱你们

想时常环绕在你们之间

只为了得到一丝的注目

最近

我们都少接触了

我知道是我自己的问题

所以

我没有怨言

自私的我仍然希望她不会在加入我们

我讨厌我自己那样！

可是谁又懂我真正的感受？

无论在任何时候

看到你们开心

我真得很开心

看到你们难过

心真得疼了

我不想看到任何一个受伤

所以宁愿受伤的是自己

怎么泪掉了

怎么心痛了

我真得很想抱着你们五个哭

对不起

真的对不起

我不知道我自己为什么会酱

我不喜欢

我就是不喜欢自己将

我希望每一次给你们的感动

真的能让你们感动

换成最美好的回忆

我并不希望我的付出会换来什么回报

我也不希望我所作的一切换来一句伟大

我只希望

你们真正的快乐

那

早已足够了

希望她们不会看到我所写的一切

因为我不想惹起任何的误会

更不想带来任何不爽的感觉或冲突

这里

只是我唯一舒缓心情的地方

好朋友的代言人：就是我们六个！

今年的生日

怎样过

9.52p.m

11.09.2009

E.S.T.

E.S.T.

English Science Technology

a subject that i not interest in.

i'm not the friend of e.s.t.

unfrotunately, both of us can't be friends.

because my english is poor.

add on, my science technology knowledge is worst!

if you ask me those infromation about technology.

sorry to tell you " I don't know"

it's too hard for me to memorise the function of computer or blahs.

i'm totally a stupid when facing computer.

i just know the way to surf the net and how to function microsoft word.

that's all.

mr. poh, my est teacher.

he told us that the essay for this exam will relate to computer.

when i get this information, i was just " what the. . . . . . "

COMPUTER

a common but strange thing for me.

Duh```

how come relate to computer.

actually, now i'm trying to surf the internet to get those info about computer.

but it's really too hard for me.

as what i said just now, " i'm totally a stupid when facing the computer"

i think i better follow my friend's suggestion.

read the textbook.

maybe will helped a bit~

not in mood to study my e.s.t.

for sure that, i can't score in this subject again.

but i really do wish that i can score well in this paper.

not just this paper, but others papers too!

i want to get high marks!

i wish to score with flying colours!

online and crapping with those XXX in facebook just now.

releasd some stress with crapping with them.

haha.

stop here.

without wasting my time, i need to study my E.S.T.

(although i wasted a lot of time already)

T_T

ganbateh!

last but not least, happy birthday my dear friend, ting han!

we knew each others since primary school.

we had been good friends since we are just 8 years old.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

11.28p.m

10.09.2009

Am i too greedy?

Am i greedy for something?

是我太贪心了吗？

心里只是要求一个像以往一样的生活

只属于我们六个的生活

我讨厌自己的自私

可是，我的头脑一直不由自主地控制着我自己去抗拒她的加入

最近

我都没再怎样跟你们聚集在一起

不是因为我再也不喜欢那聚集在一起的感觉

只是，我克服不到我自己

我就是不喜欢由他在

所以宁愿自己一个人坐着

或许

你们真的没留意到吧

也可能连唯一最清楚情况的婷也没发觉

我的眼泪一滴一滴的在心里流

仿佛早已成为心中的滂沱大雨

只是

我还没找到一个让我避雨的避风港

友谊早已在我心里占据重要的位置

你们五个更是我生命中最要好的朋友

我贪婪吗?

在学校没办法聚集在一起

我也唯有突如其来的一封信息来带给你们一丝的关怀

信息中来平衡我们最近谈不到的话题应该不算过分吧？

对不起

真得很抱歉

我真地接受不到她的存在

我也不喜欢自己的自私

但是

他之前对我的态度

我实在不能接受她成为我们六个人中的第七个

心里交叉着的心情

谁能懂？

我心里担心的一切

我都不能告诉你们

谁能明白我？

我不想被取代

心中下着的雨

何时才能冲破我心里的障碍？

何时才能让我不再胡思乱想？

多希望你们能不由自主地想起我

主动过来找找我

哪怕那天会是我开心的一天了

5.19p.m

10.09.2009

考试

预考

似乎并不像想象中那么难

感觉上读了就一定会

可惜

需要读的我都并没有读

能怨谁？

暂时考了5科

国语

英语

历史

道德

数学

但是

还有9个科目等着我

预考怎么都要考体育和sivik?

认为我们太得空了吗？

有种无奈的感觉

=-=

上个星期算是最轻松的一个星期吧?

至少除了历史以外

其他的也不怎么需要背

道德也只许要背那36题而已

想快快把试考完

不用每天压力缠身

辛苦

今天

哭了

高级数学太多不会了

生气自己怎么那么笨

怎么那么懒

以前

从来都没有想过原来数学可以是那么难

可以是那么复杂

眼泪抹干后，还是得继续温习

时间

不够用

谁可以做下好人牺牲下自己的时间让一让给我

好让我把那读不完的书一一给温习完

只想在考试中获得佳绩

其他的暂时不想想

最近的心情

中中的

没什么起伏

只是今天，终于忍不住流下泪

从小就对成绩要求高的我怎样不给自己压力？

不过，庆幸的是

最近有你来陪伴着我

好久没有一个人能在我心情低落时能逗我笑一笑了

喜欢上了吗？

不晓得

更不想去想

喜欢与不喜欢重要吗？

还只不过是一种形容词

不过，还是谢谢你对我的呵护

其实

我不希望有任何的外人介入进我们六个里

朋友

是没问题

可是

要加入我们还是免了

我坦诚

我就是不喜欢！

我只要我们六个在一起！

呼~凌晨2.31分

睡仙在呼唤我的睡意

可是

我得撑下去

不让自己倒下

发奋！

加油

2.32a.m

7.9.2009