Thursday, April 30, 2009

WE ARE A TEAM, WE HAVE SAME DREAM.

sorry to all of you ~
i doesn't mean to let you all cry.
so sorry for that~
but, i also can stand for it already~

WE ARE A TEAM!
we should trust each other, believe in each others.
our shoulder should be always to be prepare for each other to lay on.
we should think for each other.
but, not only for ourselves.
without one of you all.
our team become not perfect.
one of you also can't leave this team without any reason that can't be accepted.

today, i cried.
finally, my tears drop.
tears that full of disapointed.
i had promised to myself not to cry for st. john again~
but, i failed to do it.
i love this society so much.
damn love!
it gives me a lot of memories.

when you tell me that you want to quite from the formation team.
i feel so disapointed.
i am so sad to listen about this~
i can't expect that you will tell me this ~
you want to give up.
you broke my dreams.

once you leave this team, all of us will lost everything.
once you leave, we can't continue our journey for our formation competition.
once you leave, our team will lost our soul.
because all of us also important to each others.
once you leave, what we practiced before means nothing already.
all improvement of us also means nothing already.

do you still remember the time we have fun together?
we training together?
we celebrate together?
we shout with happiness together?
we all need you~

i know you are sad because of your hand problem.
you are born with this problem but it's not your fault.
this won't be the reason for you to stop from joining our team right?
what mr. tan said you no need to care too much~
because he don't know the problem that you facing.
i know you are feeling sad because of this.
don't keep on saying you are a burden in this team.
you are not!

all of us will always stand by you.
all of us will keep on supporting you~
don't worry```

say a lot of things to my members.
damn!
finally, i can't compress my feelings.
my tears drop.
i just hope that you all will understand what i am saying and think carefully before you make any decision.
don't leave this team with a reason that can't acceptable.
we all need each other.

although i now sure others will understand what is my feelings or not.
but, i'm sure that my teamate will know my feelings.

weng yan, please come back to our team.
i want you back with your soul and your heart.
but not just keep on marching without a soul~
believe yourself that you can do it!

n/a team from smjk pei yuan will be the best!
as what i always tell you all```
we can do it if we want!
GO GO GO!


WE ARE A TEAM, WE HAVE THE SAME DREAM !


2.25 p.m
01.05.2009

== moody ==
== lend me a shoulder, please ==

TIRED BUT NOT SLEEPY

feel so tired~
myneck so pain now.
sigh```

late of the night already, but i still keep on typing my blog.
hahax.
don't know why~
i enjoying writing blog.
express out my feelings.
it's a good place for me to drop down all my memories.
i like it!XD

hot weather.
i hate this type of weather.
make me feel moody and feel sleepy all the time.
can't pay all attention in studying.
too bad!
i dislike this weather, prefer rainy day more~
especially walk or play under this weather.
it's syok and comfortable!
hahax.
damn like it~
i think many of you also agree with me right?
=)

few more hours, i need to go to school to attend my marching training.
actually, it's damn tired.
but, sometimes really enjot in it.
because i always be the one who do something that funny to cheer up my member.
hahax.
maybe that's my mission and my character.
hahax.XD
just try my best to do it~

erm. . i want to improve my english~
my english is poor.T_T
i am stupid narx.
need to give more effort in my academics.
hoho.XD
i can do it!
hiak hiak...

getting fat.
SUCKX!hate it.
i want to keep fit.
hehex.
try my best sin~
^^

tired now~
is still don't sleep now.
tomorrow sure i will a panda ler.
good night.
muakx.

1.57am
01.05.2009

I FOUND THE SECOND CLONE OF HIM

i found the second clone of him~
this guy looks like him so much~
his face, his action.
totally like him~
he damn cute!hahax.
XD

looking at this guy...
suddenly a lot of memory playing in my mind.
argh!
stop it.
hahax.XD

but, they really look alike.
the way he talking, marching, and so on~
but, it doesn't mean anything to me anymore.
hahax.
i promise myself not to think any nonsense anymore.
just look through the way in front of me.
i don't want to live under his shadow again~
but, he really cute.XD

recently, keep on doing my homework.
oh man! it's too many.
ARGH!
please stop giving so much of homework to me anymore.

yesterday, i can't do my homework.
ARGH!
just because of the stupid examination things.
damn busy in completing those form.
SIGH``
my cutie member keep on give me trouble.
keep on tell me that they want to sit for the exam.
correct the form for many times...T_T
until midnight.
hope they will treasure what i had done and pass in the exam with flying colours larx.
hahax.=)
then what i had done is worth for me.
=]

some of my friends have some arguement recently.
i don't know how to comforting them.
because i know comforting is useless.
they should solve the problem by themselves.
but, pretties...
it is not worth for you all to argue just because of a guy.
you all should think properly that guy is more important or your friendship,right?
but, maybe give some time for yourself to calm down is better narx.^^

if you need a listener, i can be yours.
just tell me if you need any help.
i will prepare for you~
always stand by you.
cheer up!


recently sick again.
sobx.
i need to take a rest i think~
hahax.

prepare for my mid-year exam is better.
=)

5.52p.m
30.04.2009

Monday, April 27, 2009

A MEMORABLE ANNIVERSARY

last saturday, i had passed a memorable anniversary .
woohOO```
it's fun.
i am so enjoy in celebrating it.

SIGH``
but i just take part in the gathering after 10 o'clock.
this was the part that not perfect.
omg~ @_@

weeEEE```
our form 5 performance get a best response from others unit unifrom.
woohOoo``
so syok!

get a lot of prasing on that day.
SYOK!
the all say i really act dou look like ms. choon ler.
@_@
hehex.
finally my idea worked!!!!!!
feel extremely happy on that day. XD

actually before that, i just plan to take fashion show as our perfromance.
but, finally i had changed it into fashion show + skecth.
woohOO```
this idea i think for a whole night.
almost burst my pity brain.
>_<

naughty me was acting ms.chon there. [MISS CHOON]
while the handsome soo was acting mr. lin there. [MR. LIM]
woohoo~~ we are the best partner ler.
when we two standing in front of all audience.
we two feel so nervous because we never practise before .
@_@

but, finally we two success to do it!
we able to do it!
but, i forget to act the way of saying "CRYING BABY".
lolx.
i forget to act the funniest part ler.
=_=

actually one day before, me and little soo still worrying about our custome.
try our best to find some custome that suit for our character.
@_@
our look are funny larx.
i also don't know how to describe my look ler.

and i keep on taking photo there.
hehex.
what also want to capture.
because for me, it is a last year for me to stay in this school.
so, i want to keep more memories in my mind~
that's why i keep on capturing there.
hehex.=)

and the anniversary t-shirt...
finally it successed to produce.=]
i damn treasure this t-shirt.
it will be a part of our memories.
because it really bring a lot of problem to us before.
i hope that all my members will treasure it also ler.
=)

thanks for all my members, organiser committee and friends.
they make me feel happy and enjoy along the anniversary.
they make me full in mood on that day~
damn!!!!
LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!

I LOVE ST. JOHN!
it really bring a lot of memory and meaning to me.

52nd anniversary had passed.
and this will be a memorable anniversary for me!
i won't forget forever.



I MISS MY ANNIVERSARY!
I MISS MY PERFORMANCE!




4.05pm

Friday, April 24, 2009

WAITING FOR THE ARRIVAL OF ANNIVERSARY

woohOO```
7 hours more anniversary will began~
hahax.XD
waiting for it ler.
hope that i will enjoy it ..=)

today, my brain gonna burst.
because keep on thinking our form 5 performance.
finally,
i have an idea about the performance.
we all are trying to performce about pei yuan's life.
wakaka...
for me,i think that it is a good idea.
give a big clap for myself first lur~~~=]

after fixing a theme.
we all start to give more idea about this.
hehex.
chit-chatting~wooHOo```
it's fun ,man!
hope that tomorrow my idea will work.
hope that all audience will like it!

i just hope that i will have a big clap from them.
because i really try my best to think about this idea.
ARGH~~~
i think today will be another memorable day for me ler~
weeEEEE```

just now hang out with my pretty gangs again.
hehex.
soo,nam and teng.
hahax.
gossips around, chatting, discussing.
hoho.XD
have a fun time with them ler.
love them so much.hahax.
i have a pretty mood now~hahax.


yesterday took a class photo with all of my classmate.
not so enjoying in that ler.
whatever narx.
hehex.just a memory for us lur~
hope that it will be a nice photo ler~

ARGH```
still not yet prepared my costume ler.
lolx.
the character that i took is quite hard to performe ler.
and the costume........
don't know what should i wear ler.
aduh!!
hope that i can performe well=)

gonna prepare now.
nights lur~

1.03a.m
25.04.2009

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

I'M NOT IN MOOD

my mood.
ARGH!!
as a conclusion```
i am not in mood now.

my dear~my handphone.
lolx.
don't know what happened.
the colour screen suddenly broke already.
damn sad now~
i think need about 100++ to repair it.
getting poor now.
suckx.
=[

add on our presentation for anniversary is not prepared yet.
ARGH!!!
sure that i hope that our anniversary will successed..
but...we really not enough time to prepare well ler~
hope that all the audience will like our performance.
SIGH```
anniversary for this year seems like not perfect for me ler.

Recently, gastrik again nehx.
lolx.
what happened?
sobx sobx.
suffering in it~

many homework that waiting for me.
too busy recently.
exam is coming soon~
how should i face it?
mid-year exam is the only for me to prove that i am not stupid actually.
i don't want to look down by anyone.
i hate it!

today,some colleges came to our school to have some promotion about their colleges.
looking around~
but...i not sure which subjects is suitable for me ler~
but the subjets that i most interest in is hotel management and travel management.
and i like the bakery too!!
i like cooking and baking so much!
but...my mom hope that i won't take the hotel management as my study subject.
for her, this job won't earn much money in the future.
actually, i also don't know what should i study after SPM..
i am blurring.
feel that i am a failure!
i try to plan for my future.
but,i really don't know what should i study ler~
i just hope that i can study in singapore after SPM.
but, i am poor in my english!!
sigh```
try to improve in right now~

ARGH!
i also don't know how should i describe my mood ler~
WORST!!!
=(

lolx.
how should i tell others my feelings now?
i not really sure.
just hope that someone will know what am i thinking now ler~

and now!
i just love myself.
tired in loving anyone except my besties and my pretty mUi s ...
they are lovely.

damn!
i don't know what i am typing now.
ARGH!!

jiayous........=]
you can do it!

7.23p.m
21.04.2009
TUESDAY

Sunday, April 19, 2009

失落

失落的心情一点一滴地步入我的心里。
赫赫。只想冷笑~
为什么突然失落起来?
其实只是一件很小的事情。
微不足道的事情。
一瞬间,心情就被影响了。
失败吧?哈```
此刻的我只想找个人谈谈天
似乎每个人都睡了
也不知道还能找谁
只好又对着荧幕滴滴答答地打起字来
这些声音
又陪我度过这个宁静的夜晚了
多想让自己哭泣
但是
我不能
哈哈
我是坚强的!
哈哈
心里最深处的感受
连自己也触摸不到
又怎能要人家真正去了解呢?
隐藏在心里的感受
何时才能爆发出来?
我爱上了这里
让我述说心情的这里
赫赫
只希望今年的anniversary会是心目中的那样完美的
12.45a.m
20.04.2009
MONDAY

Saturday, April 18, 2009

50% =] 50% =[

MY MOOD.
NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
TWO DAYS BEFORE.
OUR BOY TEAM AND GIRL TEAM WON IN THE FORMATION CHAMPION LER~
HAHAX.XD
SO SYOK~ FEEL SO EXCITED LORXX.=]
HEHEX.
AND OUR COMMANDER BE THE BEST COMMANDER TOO WER``
WEEEE````

WHAT THE FUNNIEST THINGS IS...
HAHAX.OUR COMMANDER TOO HAPPY JOR.
HAPPY TILL AFTER SHE RECEIVE THE TROPHY,
SHE STAND WRONG PLACE ALREADY.
SHE STAND TO OTHERS ST. JOHN PASUKAN GEH PLACE WER~
HAHAX.=]
ALL OF US ALSO LAUGH~
REALLY FUNNY ER.
HOHO..=)

BUT REALLY FEEL HAPPY THAT DAY ER.
HAHAX.
WHAT A MEMORABLE DAY.
THAT DAY WE DID A WELL JOB ER.
HAHAX...XD
UNEXPECTED GOOD PERFORMANCE THAT DAY WER```weeEEE```

ALTHOUGH THAT DAY REALLT TIRED LER.
BUT, IT'S WORTH NARX.
WE GO TO SCHOOL AT 4 O'CLOCK THAT DAY ER.
SO EARLY WER~
HAHAX...
BUT NEVERMIND LUR~
HOHO...=)

PROUD OF ALL OF MY LOVELY MEMBERS.
LOVE THEM A LOT WER.
ALL MY EFFORT ALSO WORTH LER.
HEHEX..XD
HAPPY HAPPY~
ST. JOHN IS THE BEST LER.
WeeeEEEE````

CONGRATES TO KADET MEMBERS TOO```
WEEeeEEE```
THEIR TEAM ALSO BE CHAMPION IN THEIR FORMATION COMPETITION LER.
HAHAX...
SO SYOK.

BUT,UNFORTUNATELY.
KRS JUST GET THE SECOND PLACE IN THE COMPETITION.
WHEN I HEARD THE NEWS.
FEELS QUITE DISSAPOINTED AND SHOCK WHEN HEARD THIS NEWS.
QUITE SAD///
BECAUSE REALLY HOPE THEM CAN BE THE CHAMPION.
I ALSO DON'T KNOW HOW TO COMFORT THEM LER.

THEY ARE MY BESTIES GANGS.
WHEN I AM HOPELESS.
WHEN I AM SAD.
WHEN I AM MOODY.
WHEN I AM NO CONFIDIENCE.
THEY ALWAYS STAND BY ME.
THEY ALWAYS COMFORTING ME WER.
AND THEY TREAT ME WELL.
I LOVE THEM SO MUCH...

THEY KEEP ON SUPPORTING ME ALONG THE WAY.
THEY ALSO HELP ME TO ADD OIL IN MY COMPETITION.
THEY. . .ARE MEANINGFUL FOR ME LER.
SURE THAT WHEN I KNOW THEY BE THE SECOND IN COMPETITION.
MY PRETTY MOOD HAD SPOIL.
MOODY~

DAMN TIRED RECENTLY.
ARGH!
ALWAYS FEEL SLEEPY.
HAHAX..XD
LIKE A PIG ALREADY LER.
NOT GOOD NOT GOOD.

REALLY NEED TO SAY THANK YOU TO MY BESTIES GANGS...
THEY REALLY HELP ME A LOT.
THANKS FOR LENDING SHOULDER FOR ME.
THANKS FOR ALWAYS STAND BY ME WER```
LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH~
WOOHOO```

JUST NOW HANG OUT WITH MY BESTIES.
HOHO...XD'
I HAVE A FUN TIME WITH THEM.
WEEeeE```

SO HAPPY.
THEY ARE MY LIFE.
THEY ARE MY LOVE.
I NEED FRIENDS.
HAHAX...

BUT NOW.
I NEED TO PAY MORE ATTAENTION IN MY ACADEMICS LORX.
I DON'T WANT TO LOOK DOWN BY OTHERS.
I WANT TO TELL THEM THAT "I CAN"..
I'M ABLE TO DO IT!

ARGH!
THE STUPID PRINCIPAL WANT US TO ORGANISE THE CONCERT LER~
OMG..@_@
BRING TROUBLE TO US ONLY ..
I BE THE LEADER OF EMCEE IN THIS COMPETITION WER` ``
AND I ALSO NEED TO TAKE POSE IN FINDING SPONSOR ALSO LER.
SOBX..
ME GONNA BUSY TILL DIE SOON LER~
OMG.
EMCEE WER```
FEEL STRESS ALSO LER.

RECENTLY SO POOR LER.
SOBX SOBX.

AND THIS IS FOR THE FATTY LOONG.
THANKS LORX.
FOR GIVING SOME INFORMATION ABOUT FORMATION TO ME BEFORE LORX.
IF I DON'T WRITE HIS NAME HERE.
LATER HE NOT HAPPY THEN CRY JAU CHAM LER.
HAHAX...XD
THANKS A LOT BER````

PRETTY DEAR GANGS.
LOVE YOU ALL.
MUAKX.

2.24A.M
19.04.2009
SUNDAY

Thursday, April 9, 2009

PROBLEMS

problems keep happening.
i feel so stress right now~
who can lend me a shoulder to against on or cry?
my brain gonna burst~
i reallt feel so stress...

krs and st. john have some problem right now.
omg~wish that nothing happened before.
why me always wad the one who chosen by principal to meet him?
why everytime also call me to solve the problems?
ARGH!
what principal is that?
i am tired right now!surrender.
my heart can't stand with it anymore.
i know we did wrong this time, but my view is..
you all shouldn't say like this also~
anything happened also should't libatkan pasukan lain~
GOD, can you give me energy to solve all the problems?
i need you ~

finally,i think that the t-shirt problems solved already.
hope that no others things will happened anymore.
stop it~
ARGH!

my dear friends,thanks a lot for comforting me this few days.
you guys make me feel touching.
thanks for caring ,supporting and standing beside me.
guys,i am damn love you all~
pretty guys,i promised that you all will be me best friends forever.
my besties, thanks for concerning me.
i appreciate it so much~

keep on receiving news and messages from krs members.
i think you all no need to feel guilty..
not you all problems,because you all also know nothing.
i won't blame you all~
just someone who did wrong but don't want to appologize, i hate this!
i just hope can hear a "sorry" from you.

received a message just now.
feel so warm.
unexpected he will message me.
his message make me feels so warm.
just because of he is the first person who message me and appologise to me although not his fault.
thankx a lot.
this message is meaningful for me.

but now,my dream broken already.
i think i am no able to study in singapore anymore.
maybe this incident affect the kelakuan that write in my sijil berhenti later.
ARGH!! today cry for many times just because of this problems.
because i really worry about my future.
i try so hard to do well.
i try my best to pass out all the homework on time.
i take part in a lot of competition.
just because that i hope i can get "AMAT BAIK" in my kelakuan.
but now..
because of this...all my efford had been wasted.
how can i not cry for it?
i work so hard for what??

i try to improve my poor english..
ready for my target.
hope can study in singapore.but now.................................
i try my best to improve my english for what?

_________________________________________________________________________
recently, always sick.
fever, headache,stomachache,hand pain.
ARGH!!!

my busy life make me can't rest well especially this few days.
hey man!
i want to rest more!
my folio is not ready yet.
my formasi is in process.
anniversary seems like in danger.
ARGH!!!!!!!!


will he prepared for me?
will he remember what he promised me today?
"i sure will lend you my shoulder to you if you need it"
although i know it won't happened,but thanks for saying this to comfort me.


yaya..i will promised myself not to cry anymore.
as what you tell me...
[BE STRONG,DON'T CRY ANYMORE]


09.04.2009
10.04p.m
Thursday

Monday, April 6, 2009

MY BUSY LIFE

huu~~~start my busy life again.
i tought this year i can rest more and just concentrate in my spm .
lolx..
but still busying to prepare for my competition~

lolx...
this week gonna represent our school to take part in competition again~
SIGH```
folio ~~~omg~
gonna prepare a folio that about 99 pages...lolx...
my godness...
not prepare yet~
me and my teamate also worrying right now~
just hope that we can do out best in this few days.
ganbateh nehx..=]

next thursday is our formation marching competition~
just hope that we all can do out best in it~
at least win in the first round narx.
keep on marching this few days.
SIGH```what a tired job~
getting darker and darker.
that's why i dislike maching.
not only getting darker~
but make me feel tired too~
at night,feel so tired and no energy to complete my homework already~
but,finally i able to do it!
hahax...XD
i never controlled by my tired feelings for not doing my homework..=]
GIVE A BIG CLAP FOR MYSELF...=]

although i need to prepare so much of things.
but i still need to enjoy in doing it~
because that my life.
my secondary school life~
i need to enjoy it~it will be a interesting part of my memories.
hahax...XD
after graduated from this school.
my secondary life will end~
woOhoO````
enjoy-ing...=)

ARGH!!
sleepu now.
gonna take a big big rest ...hahax...
tomorrow will be a better day.
prepared well to face it.^^

== MY HEART BELONGS TO ME ==
weeEEEEEEE````````````````````


07.04.2009
12.48a.m
Tuesday

Friday, April 3, 2009

I NEED TO TAKE A REST

feel so tired recently~
ARGH!!
keep on meeting and meeting~
almost burst myself..
really tired and boring in repeating this process~
so much of competition and activities wating for me~
ARGH!!!
i just want to have a rest~
leave down all my jobs and my responsibility~
and go put for take a breath~~

recenlty~
feel stress in my academic~
really stress...now i just try my best to do all my works.
just hope that i able to get a better result in my semi-final examination that coming soon~
this few days,be more hardworking then before~
but if compare with january~
i still lazy then before.
ARGH!!!
i want to score well in exam```
ganbateh~i know i can do it well!!

recently,my mood become not stable~
suddenly i will feel so happy,but suddenly,i can be so moody~
maybe because of something trapping in my heart~
a big question~
i just want to forget everything and concentrate in my SPM~
SPM is most important~~muahahahahahaha..XD

today~get a present from someone~
an appologize gift~
whatever narx.
i don't think this gift is important for me~
because. . i really not care about this gift~
but,anyway,thanks for your gift~
but you still never change your childish attitude.
SIGH```
but,maybe we still are friends~=]

stupid weak body~
always sick~
fever and fever~
headache, stomachache~
gastrik~ALAMAK!!

shu shu shu~
so away from me~
hahax...

I AM A HEALTHY GIRL~~^^