Some words in my heart

Hi people, its me again.

Should I go for that?

Bachelor in law.

Since I was studying in secondary school, a lot of people asked me to go for law in future.

Seriously, should I go for it?

I have no idea with my future anymore.

Because, I don't know which path should I go for.

But, what I know is I totally not interest in fields which related much with computers.

How many peoples know that every time before I going back to UMP, I kept on crying.

My tear drops automatically.

I dislike that place so so much~

I don't have many friends there.

I can't communicate with my coursemates sometimes.

Seriously, this feeling is killing me.

Every time before going back to that hell place, I do always cry in front of him.

He is the only one who knows that how sad I am.

He is the only one who knows that how unwilling for me to go back UMP.

He is the only who hug me when I cried in front of him.

I dare not to tell anyone how sad I am.

I dare not to show how unhappy I am.

Because, I dare not to let them my actual feeling.

Because, I worry will let them feel disappointed.

Because, I worry they will scold me again.

Because, I know my mum will not listen properly to my heart words.

But, I did try my best to score as high as possible.

I know I can score if I force myself to do so.

But, did any of you really care about my happiness?

Do you guys concern about me?

Do you guys ask me am I happy or not?

I dare not to tell anythings about that.

Had search for few private university recently.

Han Jiang College

For HJ, I think this will not be the first consideration.

This is because it is a college but not university.

KDU

I think the school fees is too high for me.

;(

Out of budget.

Another one : MMU

This one still under consideration.

Law?

Mass com?

Or something relate with acting?

I forget how many times i had cried silently before.

I dare not to tell anyone even him too.

I keep on pray to my dearest GOD and ask him to show me a way I should go for.

But, until now I also don't know where should I go for.

I seem like lost the path that I should go for.

Because, I dare not to tell them my heart words.

That's why I start to feel not interest in studying anymore.

Confuse.

Anyone can tell me or show me the way should I go for?

Maybe I should tell them how unhappy I am.

Perhaps~

01.16a.m

20.01.2013