Its all about my dream

Notice my title again?

"Its all about my dream"

Had been a long long time never think about think.

But suddenly, this pop up in my mind again.

This is because of this "TVB Awards Presentation 2012".

And for sure you all will know that I'm going to talk about my "STAR" dream again.

Change to another channel.

Chinese channel.

今天说的就是我的梦想。

从我懂事以来，一直没有变过的梦想。

明星

还是一样，我想做的还是明星。

看了2012年的TVB颁奖典礼，我心里的那团火又燃起了。

我还是很喜欢舞台，很喜欢演艺。

我也觉得自己很适合。

看到每一个艺人上台拿奖时，我都有一种感动，都有一种羡慕。

为什么他们有那份勇气去追寻这个梦？

我缺少的，就是这份勇气。

真的很想当一个演技很好的演员。

人家说得发明星梦大概就是说一些人向往的明星梦吧。

可是为什不能想下人家真的很喜欢这个工作而是虚荣呢？

舞台，人生的舞台。

真的希望自己人生的舞台就是演艺圈。

有个舞台让我发光发热！

心里对演艺的热情，还是无法压抑！

02.16a.m

22.12.2012

Decision

Stay or leave?

Continue or give up?

There's such a big decision waiting for me to decide!

No.. Perhaps i should say 2 big decision waiting for me to decide. 

;(

Seriously, sometime i really do hate to make a decision.

And the decision that i hate to make are all relate with my future and life!

;(

Emo?

Not really.

Just don't know what decision should i make to achieve a better future and life.

This is woman?

Perhaps... Or I'm only the one who always face this kind of problem?

Hmmmmmm...

People always do go for the better life right?

Same here.

I just wish to be the only me.

The real me instead of changing to be another me.

Why always do force me to so something that I'm not happy with?

Why always to force me to be the fake me which not my real personalities?

I hate FAKE people!

So, please do not change me to become the one that I hate.

Or else I will hate myself too

;(

Relationship?

What you guys understand about relationship?

Hmmmm..

I mean couple larr.

Is it all relate with love only?

For me not really, is about tolerate.. Is about accept the characteristics and the personalities of your partner.

But, why my partner doesn't accept mine?

;(

What a sad case for others t hear that from me.

Seriously, getting more and more unwilling to share my story with others.

There's too much problems between me and him.

I admit that I'm not willing to tolerate more start from last week.

I just wish to be the true, real me.

Is that a fault?

I am person who like to stand in front of others to perform something.

I like to be emcee, i like to be one of the character in drama.

I love to stand on stage!

I'm that kind of girl!

Not to expose myself to be more popular, but these are the things that I like to do much!

I love my social like.

I really do like to make friends with others, organise some events and so on.

This is the true character of me!

You knew that since the day you come to me.

But, why... 

Until now you still try to change me to be someone.

;(

Damn emo because of this!

I do not like to argue with you frequently.

It drives me crazy and cannot focus in doing my revision!

A photo with a guy is that weird for you?

Just a memory snapshot between friends.

So what?

Asked my friends with same question : Will you boy allow you to take photo with guy?

All the answers are same!

YES!!!!!

Just a photo, that's all!

Sigh~

A big sigh~

How to enhance?

How to maintain?

Anyone can teach me?

I just feel like want to stop this kind of arguement.

Nonsense.

I'm tired.

And, people! Happy 20122012!

Another special day!

Appreciate it!

:)

02.52pm

20.12.2012

呻吟的心

      就因为一个微不足道的comment,普通朋友的comment,他又说了伤害我的话。发了脾气，还要不理会我的电话和信息。我累了。我想有我的自由。一封又一封的信息就只为了都回他开心，可是，却得寸进尺。我，真的累了。

      为什么？你就非要那样不可?非要一次又一次地让我自己抱着自己痛哭后，还要坚持自己的说法，还要加上一些更加伤害的话？我就是那么的不被值得？难道就不可以好好的对我？三年多的感情都这样维系，我，真的会累。我曾经以为只要我自己一个人真的肯努力，只要我肯坚持，什么都不是问题。可是，我忘记了我会累。

      这一晚，抱着自己哭了。眼泪，划过脸颊，洗干净了自己的脸。冷静下来，想了想这3年他说过伤害我的话。泪没有掉了，只是问了自己为什么那么失败，不能让他对自己好一点？眼睛哭肿了，只是在朋友面前掩饰说是自己前一天太夜睡。其实，我的心还在呻吟。只是没有人听到。远方的他，听到了吗？

      听说今天是拥抱情人节，此刻的我真的很需要一个拥抱，谁能给我？真的真的很需要。那个男人总是觉得我每次很快气消，总是觉得我很快会没事，所以一而再再而三地伤害我，他忘记了背后的我流过多少血。我的心很痛。其实很想念很想念他，可是被伤得不堪的心失去了那份勇气去想了。谁能好好保护我的心？

      前几天，某个senior信息我，竟然好像中学生那样，说想认识我什么的，觉得蛮幼稚的，没有理会太多。可是，这个时候觉得，那是候那个senior的信息，现在感觉有点讽刺。 但是，还是觉得是很无聊的信息。

      两个人的相爱其实应该是怎样的？谁能告诉我？今晚心情不是太好。我也是想要我的自由，不只是你一个人需要的，希望你也明白，我喜欢社交的生活，别绑着我，我回透不过气，这种生活3年多了，我要求并不过分，希望能明白。其实一通电话，可以令我心情好很多。至少让我笑一下。 

      今晚，不眠夜。

01.32a.m

14.12.2012

Busy weeks

Seriously, 24 hours are not enough for me.

Recently is too busy in settle my KK and academic stuff.

Drives me crazy!

Endless project, presentations and assignments will kill me!

That's university life!

People always tell me that university life if the most enjoyable life in you life.

Who told me this before?

Please stand out!

You this liar!

Just try my best to solve everything as soon as possible.

I'm neither a genius nor a superhero!

I can't settle everything at the same time.

So, please cooperate with me.

And, please do not throw the things to me at the last minutes.

I can't settle it together!

Is this the real meaning of group assignments?

T.T

Recently always do sleep late.

Around 3 or 4 o'clock.

Yesterday almost 5am only can sleep on my lovely bed.

;(

I miss my freedom much!

Luckily, yesterday succeed to register my 2nd sem timetable smoothly!

:D

Yippie!

Exactly the timetable i looking for。

But still hope that I will not using this timetable next sem.

Still have the leaving feeling.

;(

GOD, can my wish come true?

Stop here.

Rush for my final report and project again!

;(
Bye guys~

02.34pm

13.12.2012

12.12.12

Hi people, is me again.

Unbelievable that I had spent a whole night time chatting with 2 seniors.

Alvy and Celine.

Sounds weird. Because we have no any link with each other.

Just because of the CNY sponsor things, we had spent a whole night in crapping together!

:D

Hahahahaha

Anyway, a funny and awesome night!

We all actually are so 38! :P

Don’t try to deny!

Finally, settle Bazaar stuff. Hopefully everything runs smoothly start from tomorrow!

GOD blessing me. I know! Hahaha

Another thing is, keep fit plan fail again!

I had cococrunch as my supper again!

I served this together with milk.

One word : FAT!

3 more days will be prom night.

My tummy please leave me alone.

I found my partner in my prom night already.

Please do not worry about me anymore, I need not your accompany >.<

Study study and study!

Next week going to have 4 tests, 5 quizzes, 1 final report, 1 assignment!

What a pack week!

I need more time! 24 hours are too less for me!

;(

Gayau babe! You can do it!

Another thing would like to share here is, how come so many people thought I’m a banana?

I know Chinese!

I know it! Although not that expert like others lar

:P

I’m a pure Chinese, sure I know my language well

J

Between, is it good for me because others thought I’m a banana?

Hahaha

Perhaps.

Before end up my post for today, I would like to say something to you all!

Since everyone also posting 12.12.12 in facebook, I also want to shout out!!!

HAPPY 12.12.12 to everyone!

Today will be a great great day.

Hopefully I success to register the time table which I prefer later :P

Stop talking here. Head back to my book!

Not FACEBOOK but face book!

:P

Night dude!

01.21a.m

12.12.12

Busy University Life

     Maybe this is the "enjoyable" university life that mentioned by seniors before. LOL! I hate this kind of busy life much! This is because I cannot master my course subject well, therefore, i hate busy life! It wastes me a lot of time in doing others useless stuff.

     Seriously, I hate the feeling of running an event without a good preparation! It will make me crazy! Please do not repeat this kind of stupid "planning" again! Wasted me a lot of time in rushing all the things! 

     Went to Kuantan to have a deal with Sin Chew Jit Poh manager just now. It was so funny in chit-chatting with seniors. LOL! Damn funny lar them! xD But it was a tiring trip! Because i slept at 4a.m yesterday! Today rushed to the bus-stop and waited senior to fetch me to Kuantan. GOSH! I hate rushing seriously! But, don't know why i always rush here and rush there because of the only 1 reason! Over slept! >.< Gonna change my bad habit soon!

     3 weeks later will be my final exam. But, i still have not prepare anything yet. I want to get a good pointer. Will be too late to start all these things now? Hopefully i can rush all the things and catch up what lecturer had taught previously. ;( GOD bless me :(

     1 week later will be prom night. But, but, but, my diet plan still haven't success yet. Fat like a pig now! T.T Can i slim down in 5 days time? Hopefully can. :( Stop eating so much things start from now. Hopefully i can control my appetite! Ganbateh!

     Stop here. Gonna rush for my presentation slide. Good luck in my next presentation! :D




09.21p.m
08.12.2012

The another post

Finally few days ago, i forgave him.

Another starting point for us.

Should say thank you to both of us because never give up this relationship.

:)

Instead of being more complicated, we tried our best to run it smoother :)

A good try and will try to maintain and enhance it.

Because this is another best present that gave by GOD to me.

:)

And guess what i would like to talk about today?

Another show off?

hahahahaha

Previously during my form 6 time, I have no change to show off my result of performance at all.

Except for the co-curricular part.

But now, this seems to be changed!

I got the highest marks in test, i was the only 1 who get the highest marks.

And for today, what i want  to share here is, I was one of the best presenter in my TITAS presentation yesterday.

Another syok news to share out! :D

Clap hands people!

;)

Happy indeed!

Although my slides post, although i have no enough time to present all the slides that i had  prepared for more than 1 week.

But, luckily i still able to be one of them! :D

Glad to hear that from lecturer.

And finally what lecturer told me : " You are so good in your presentation!"

Thank you sir, you made my day!

But, another thing comes into my mind.

ICT presentation~

again, its presentation.

Like a cycle, keep on happening, non-stop!

Its burden me ;(

And, i have to settle down my sponsor unit stuff and mpp stuff together.

Oh man! I need a break now!

perhaps " have a KIT-KAT, have a break?" hahahaha

Suddenly received a message from 1 of the MPP, " you are the pengarah of Chocolate and Digital fair. This fair will be organised on the coming week! please rent to hall and ......."

Am i a genius?

Suddenly informed me that such a big event coming soon and now only inform me?!

And, I'm the pengarah also?!

Is that University style? o.O

But luckily this fair had been cancelled due to lack of time in preparation! :)

But, change to next year ;(

Still gonna organise that!

And I thought that's the end of my MPP stuff.....

But, this event had been replaced by another one.

and, I'm still the pengarah =.=

BAZAAR... Actually I also don't know what's that. @.@

And, this event will be held on next week also!

For 1 week time T.T

I had no time to revision already ><

Forget about that! Just try my best to squeeze some time out to prepare for my final exam.

Hopefully I can handle all these things well.

Sponsor + Bazaar = pening kepala @.@

Feel worry or my final examination right now ;(

Because i'm not expert in Programming Techniques and this subject is not a subject that you can master well.

Gonna cry soon.

Stress + tension!

Another one, is Application Development Workshop!

Another subject which kill me also!

Coding, please don't bully me anymore.

I don't want to eat ice-cream anymore after the next test.

I want to save my money and tear can?

Please be good to me ;(

3 more weeks to go.

Hope that all things will run smoothly and I can master as much as I can lar.

All the best!

Fight for a better result!

:D

I CAN DO IT! 

11.27pm

05.12.2012