ya.
you're correct.
maybe, i will totally agree with you.

one sentence.
really can change my mind.
you words really can do so.

your decision. . .
is that mine also?
your view. . .
is that mine also?
maybe.
but, i won't lost myself.

if that is your wish, i will do so.
if that is what you hope, i will do so.

man, please.
i want to be more tough.
before i success to be a tough girl, please don't hurt me anymore.
>.<
i can't stand it.


09.59pm
31.05.2010

i love him.
he is mine.

i'm really happy when be with him.
he always cheer me up and comfort me.
he always gives support to me and lend me his shoulder to me to lay on.
he is mine!!!
no doubt.

i like to hold his hand.
i like to hug him.
i like to sleep on him.

conclusion is i love him!!!!
=D

05.13pm
31.05.2010

真的是时候减肥了。
赘肉集中在腹部。
讨厌！

最肥的时期，应该就是现在吧。
减肥减肥减肥！
肥成功不可。。。
努力当中~
应该写即将努力。

番薯他，也讲我肥了。
还说“这次的你真的是时候减肥了”
以前就算再肥，他也不给我减。
我想这次我真的真的肥了很多。。。。
呜~
谁叫我爱吃东西。。。
>.<

今天去喝表姐的喜酒。
很多亲戚讲我肥了~~~
自尊心受创。。。

哈哈
没关系，我是朱乐宜哦。。
如果我真的要减，没有东西能难倒我的！
一定可以的！！！
加油加油！
XD


11.44 pm
30.05.2010

fever.
long time never sick ler.
but, i not wish to sick now.
i want to be a healthy girl.

```sigh```
what should i do now?
i don't know.
go for actuarial science directly?
or stay in seri kampar to continue my form 6 life?

i don't want to waste my 2 years.
4.0
it's hard to achieve it.
i'm lazy and not clever.
impossible for me to get this score.
blahssss
what should i do?

anybody can help me?
give some advises to me?

GOD, please give me energy.


08.16pm
30.05.2010

na na na .
na na na.
na na na na na na na.

hehe.
recently, i always singing this song.
haha.
a song that sing by BARNEY.
don't you guys know who is him?
hehe.
my idol when i was a little kid.

BARNEY, a purple color dinosaur.
i love him much when i was studying in kindergarden i think.

hehe.
my mood is definitely good right now!
hehe.
don't know why.
but, it good for me right?
hiak hiak!!

tomorrow, holidays!!!
weeeee````
no need go for school.
i'm so so so happy!
XD

at least no need face those malays guys.
i didn't look down on them.
but, i just don't like they always kacau me!!!
shit!!!
i am jie jie larx okay?
>.<
small di di, study well larx.
don't kacau me again!!!!
if not sure i kill you next time!!!

and please larx.
where is your manners?
guys can go to female's washroom?
damn!!!
hate most!!!!
as what joekee scolded them
haha.
" tak ada baca ka lu?"
good sentences!
thumbs up!!!!
everybody please give a clap for my dearest joekee.
weeeee!!!

okays.
ends up here.
have a nice day everybody.
=)


09.07pm
27.05.2010

you.

is it our class, pra u bawah sains alfa will vote for a new monitor again?
is it you will leave here soon also?
is it you will continue your journey at another places?
is it a journey without me?

today.
i know.
i realized.
i noticed.
you happy when be with them.
everytime they ask you whether you want to go out with them?
sure you will ask when? okay ark.

but, when i asked you,
errr. . . i can't promise first. tell you later okay?
the difference?
you see it?

ya.
as what you always tell me.
" i don't want to promise first because i don't want let you disappointed again. "
maybe it's true.

but, sometimes i really do hope that can hear you say
" okay ark. as long as you feel happy. "

ya.
i'm happy when be with you.
you let me feel warm.
let me feel comfortable.

but, sometimes, you really do make me feel hurt.

guy, i'm not tough enough.

11.54pm
26.05.2010

以前，我说我放下了，到后来才发现那是欺骗自己的行为。。。
但是现在长大了，思想比较成熟了，知道什么是负责。。。
“放下”，不随便乱说，说了就要对自己负责任。。。

如果真的放不下就大方承认吧，这不是什么丢脸的事。。。

因为，“放不下”比“放下”需要更大的勇气。。。

如果有人能为一段没有结果的爱情， 无期限的等待却不怕会换来更多的无奈的话，那么他/她的勇气真的能让人佩服。。。
他/她， 用时间和青春做赌注，哪怕最后伤痕累累，“放不下”的精神已叫人敬佩。。。

“放不下”的确没有什么可耻的，欺骗自己才是可悲的。。。
许多人往往深信自己真的放得下的时候才猛然发现，其实伤害自己最深的还是那想要挽回自己面子的自尊心。。。

能放下是件好事，如果真得放不下也不需要感到难过。。。
让时间帮你决定一切。。。
也许你会说，“时间，我都不知给了多少，等了多久，但伤口依然存在。”， 但是，请给点耐心， 时间真的能 淡化一切。。。
也许以后想起时，伤口还是隐隐作痛的， 但是到时候身边可能多了个人来分担。多了个人分担，痛也会减少，直到伤口结巴，再变疤痕，最后变成回忆的一部分。。。

给点时间“时间先生”吧， 它永远是最好的心理治疗师。。。

i read these sentences in one blog.
i love it much.
ya~
now only i realize and notice
放不下真的比放下还需要勇气

getting more and more of my classmates leave our LOVELY school soon.
they continue their journey with following the aim they set for themselves.
congrates to them.
i wish to do so also.
>.<
MUCH!!!

i wish to leave this school.
i wish to study what i wish to study.
i wish to study actuarial science.
i wish to be an actuary.
i wish to study oversea.

envy.
i hope that i can do what i wish to do.
study what i wish to.

chatted with ke xin and keen leong.
ya~
really make me have an impulse to leave here as soon as possible.
keen leong, he will studied in melaka soon.
he chooses law as his choice.
envy him.
can straightly what he wish to study.
congratulations man!
ganbateh ya~
haha.
in the future, i will find you if i need your help!
=D

maybe he's right.
he told me why don't i leave here also?
why need to waste 2 years time in form 6?
since i have an aim already.

what should i do?
i don't know.

i wish to be a kid again.
a moment that full with happiness.
didn't have any things that need to worry.
just worry no sweets to eat.

but, now. . .
everything are different.
i need to think for my future.
i need to think what should i study.
i need to make a correct choice.
i can't make any mistakes in choosing courses.
if not, sure i will regret someday.

sigh. .
anyone can give any view to me?
i need some advise right now.
i'm . . .
i am lost!!!
i don't know how to choose a way that i should go for.
a journey that i should continue.
:(

GOD, give me energy please.

10.52pm
26.05.2010

maybe . . .

maybe. .
everything will be fine.
if i didn't mention about anythings.
if i keep my feelings inside my hearts.
if i just pretend that's nothing for me.
all of this. . .
also maybe. . .

if, too much of maybe happen between us.
what will happened in the end?
give up?
continue?
or?

recently, you had changed.
maybe just for me.
maybe, just me sensitive.
maybe, you just too tired.
maybe, you think that's nothing for you.
maybe, all of these also not important.

but for me. . .
i will keep on thinking. . .
maybe, you are too tired recently.
maybe, you had bored in this relationship.
maybe, you not as love me as before.
maybe, i'm annoyed.
maybe, you too lazy and bore in comforting me anymore.

or, maybe. . .

today, zuki said she read my blog.
she also felt that when the moment he be with them, he feels happier than with me.
not only me felt that,
others also.
maybe, i'm sensitive?
perhaps?

today, because you felt that you are too over when blaming her.
then you keep on tease her to make her happy.
actually, i'm not too care about that.
i just pretend i see nothing.

but why?
recently, when i'm not happy or angry.
you didn't bother me.
or even show your face to me?
who am i?
i am your girl right?
how come when she is not happy you can use so much of energy to make he laugh.
but. . .
i can't?

FAILURE!
i am!!!

recently, i try my best to control my temper although you impatient when comforting me.
i wish to cry much at the moment.
my tears rolling in my eyes.
my heart is bleeding.
my mood is affecting.
but. . .
did i blame anything?
did i scolding?
did i yelling just like a mad woman?

i kept all of these in my heart.
deep in my heart.
a place that nobody can hear my voice.
except me.

today, finally i spoke out my feelings.
i thought i will felt better.
but,
i don't.

when i saw your videos and photos. . .
the videos and photos with your gangs.
i smile and laugh at first.
because i saw you smile happily, laugh cheerfully.
but at last. . .
why i feel moody and wish to cry?
haha
i also no idea with it.

don't you know your action is disappointing me?
don't you know i'm not happy?

fine.
chee lok yee is tough enough!!
cheer up cheer up my BABY! cheer up cheer up CHEE LOK YEE !!!
=D

24.05.2010
10.25pm

chee lok yee says she is on diet.
but, just now she having steak as her dinner.
RED WINE STEAK.

she needs to attend her relative's wedding party on the coming week.
but, perut buncitnya semakin besar.
damn!!!

on 29th of may, she needs to go to kl to attend her cousin sister's wedding party.
on 5th of june, maybe she going to 117 penang.
on 6th of june, she need to go to her cousin's brother wedding dinner also.
>.<
but, her diet plan still not success yet.
no idea.
she loves eating.
she loves food.
she loves snacks.

anyway, she just simply says she on diet.
but, actually . . .
T.T
nevermind, just set it as her target first.
when she free, she will do it!
=D


chee lok yee
ganbateh nehx!!!
=)


12.23am
23.05.2010

我开始怀疑
现在我做的选择是不是一个对的选择
是不是一个适合我的选择？


06.08pm
21.05.2010

don't you know i need what?

yesterday, you hurt me.
my heart was damn pain.

for me, i think the time when you gather with you gangs is more happy than with me right?
i don't know why i will think so.
but, through the photo, i can feel it.

hope that all of this just my illusion.
moody.

04.57p.m
21.05.2010

卑鄙六人组

ＣＡＰＴＡＩＮ　：　ＹＡＮ　ＪＯＥ　ＫＥＥ
ＶＩＣＥ　ＰＲＥＳＩＤＥＮＴ　：　ＣＨＥＥ　ＬＯＫ　ＹＥＥ
ＡＨ　３　：　ＣＨＯＮＧ　ＹＩ　ＭＡＮ
ＡＨ　４　：　ＹＥＯＮＧ　ＹＵＮ　ＮＡＭ
ＡＨ　５　：　ＳＩＮ　ＳＥＥ　ＴＥＮＧ
ＡＨ　６　：　ＬＥＥ　ＪＩＡ　ＨＵＩ


有谁能比我们卑鄙？
哈哈
XD

a news for me.
i don't know it is good for me or bad.

heard from soek ting
i be the environmental chairperson of omega club since 2 days ago~
argh~
is it good for me?
i didn't have any experience on it.
i worry i can't handle it.
who can help me?

projects relate with 3R and environment waiting for me.
hope that i can solve it smoothly.
hehe.

anyway, i will try my best to do what should i do.
the function on 05.06.2010, should i go?


12.29a.m
17.05.2010

i thought today you will call me go along you.
today is 14th of the month.
i really do hope that i can always stick with you.
but, i can't.

you celebrate birthday for him.
everybody ask me am i following.
i don't know how to answer.
you guys sure suppose thought that i am going right?
but, i'm not i think.
haha

countdown the days of announcing the results of JPA.
but, nothing i can do.
everytime, when i think about it.
start to be moody without reason.
just hope that can lay on you.

you promise will celebrate with me today.
but, now. . .
nevermind.
i can pass by myself.
muahaha XD
this is me. real me.
i am CHEE LOK YEE!!!

finally passed my orientation week.
a gloomy week.
yeah!
woohoo~ at least no need to play under the sun.

haha~
it's time for me to show off sikit!
i am the MOST ACTIVE FEMALE STUDENT during this week.
upper six student had chosen me to be the one.
what a suprise for me.
i got 2 test pads and 2 school badges.
haha
give a big hands for miss CHEE please.
=D


stop blogging here.
=)


08.13pm
14.05.2010

对不起，我只能这样说。
因为，我开始有了决定。
一个自私的决定。


JPA
一个我一直朝着去的方向，一个我希望能够得到的奖学金。
我，得不到。
失败了~
因为，我选错科。
他，有了面试的机会。
等待着去实现他的梦想。
如果，JPA说YES...
他就可以朝着他的方向飞行，而我只能留在原地。


从小学，我只希望能去新加坡继续我的学业。
但是，长大后才发觉自己已经变得贪心。
想去更远的地方深造。
USA, NEW ZEALAND, JAPAN, KOREA...
甚至更多更多。。。


他，选了engineering...
我好希望好希望他能的到JPA。
但，他不知道我真的好不舍得他。


我知道如果他一走，我的步法根本再也跟不上他。
我不能做绊脚石。
我只想他能有更好的前途，更好的未来。
虽然，我真的很不舍得，但也只能这样了不是吗？
之从那天，我就知道一切都可能改变了。
我们，不能再走在一起。


希望，他真的能！
就算。。
我们要分开。


你，要加油知道吗？
虽然，你不会看到~




09.18pm
13.05.2010

finally back to kampar
a lovely place for me
* home sweet home *

hu~ ending.
yeah yeah!
quite happy
back to my lovely home
no need to face those "LOVELY" customers.
what a good news for me.
=)

and another ending for something also.
yups!
totally ending.
although i don't know is it good for me
but anyway, is shouldn't think about it already.
because not related to me anymore.
and i can't and don't want think about it anymore.

anyway, school will reopen soon.
yeah yeah!
new life begin!
i gonna be more hardworking to achieve my target for studying oversea.

good luck for myself.
=)


新的旅程代表另一段成长的开始
朱乐宜，加油！

2.58pm
09.05.2010