moodless day

finally, my biology had passed.

but tomorrow will be my account.

sigh`` i also don't know why i will take it as my subject.

suffering in exam period.

iloveyou. mybesties.

ganbateh!

fight together.

5.43 p.m

30.11.2009

untitle

moody. speechless. dull. upset.

recently, these negative feelings always appear in my life.

i dislike their apprearance. i wish to kick them away from my life.

my dearest besties. don't you all know actually now i need you all much?

don't you all know i hope that the relation between 6 of us can changed to close to each other again?

i wish that 5 of you always can stay beside me.

i wish that i can always stick with you guys happily.

i wish that6 of us can stick together to chat or having fun together.

just six of us. no others.

pity girl. how come i have this kind of mind?

but, maybe because you all really too important to me. i can't lost one of you inmy life.

you all cherish me. you all colourfull my life.

without you all. my world just left black and white colours.

my life will be imperfect without you all.

just now read jia ying's blog.

suddenly miss the time that we always ponteng to storeroom for playing or chit-chatting.

both of us be the VIP for store room already.

i miss that moment much.

she always be a good listener to me.

i love her much.

she also is the one of my best friend in my life.

i can't lost her too!

YAN JOE KEE

LEE JIA HUI

CHONG YI MAN

SIN SEE TENG

YEONG YUN NAM

CHEE LOK YEE

**besties forever**

no doubt

11.49 p.m

25.11.2009

sneezing day

sick again

fever

flu

bacteria attacked my weak body again

suffering in it

sneezing all the time

argh

finally i passed my add maths papers

hope that i can pass with flying colours ler

haha

although many of them i also don't know how to do

i hate your appearance

get out from my besties gang

you make our relation not as good as before

i'm not welcome you to drop a name in my besties' list

you just a passer by in my life

get out from here!

your childish action just make me feel annoyed.

SILENT WILL BE THE BEST WAY TO SOLVE A PROBLEM?

if you wish to, then you just continue your way.

i won't force you to change for me.

10.56 p.m

25.11.2009

21.11.2009 SATURDAY

now feeling not good.

even feeling bad.

today texted with my besties man.

she is the one who sat with me in class this year.

both of us always chit-chatting and play in class.

i love her much.

now is the spm period.

no more time and chance for us to sit in our classroom to chat for our stuff.

i miss those days.

recently, i like to tell all my stuff to her.

she is my listener.

haha.

Man, you don't know how much i love you.

haha.

XD

today, we discussed about the friendship of 6 of us.

same view with me.

no so welcome the appearance of them.

because of their attitude.

i'm agree with man.

but, she not so care about this.

but she also felt that our friendship will be not as good as before.

i also worry for it.

damn!

i hate their apprearance!

i hope that we never move our places before.

i hope that they never sit near us before.

i hope that i can kick them out of my circle.

i really beh song with their apprearance.

i repeat again.

just friends.

and you won't be my besties forever.

in my life, i just have 5 besties.

EVEN CHONG YI MAN

ZUKI YAN JOE KEE

EUNICE YEONG YUN NAM

RACHEL SIN SEE TENG

LEE JIA HUI

others, sorry to tell you.

you are not my gang!!!

i love my besties!

21.11.2009

10.59 p.m

圈圈

就是不喜欢你们进入我们的圈圈

我

并不讨厌你们

只是

我不喜欢你们的加入

我

只喜欢我们六个一起的感觉

别问为什么

不喜欢就是不喜欢

没有理由

我自己也解释不到

可能是因为人合人缘吧

我们只能是朋友

不知道几时开始

你们的加入令到我们之间好像有了一丝丝疏远的感觉了

我

真的不喜欢

我有时宁愿走开

就只是因为她们存在

并不是我不想跟你们在一起

可能你们会说那是你的问题

所以

一直以来我都没有说出来

扮到若无其事

因为

我不想我们破裂

你们是我最珍惜的朋友

小雯

小婷（siu beng)

小慧 (siu fei)

小琪

小杨

就像你们说的那样

你们活在我的小小世界

所以请别用我小小世界的称号用在他们的身上

20.11.2009

02.03p.m

my english test

dull

despair

desperate

disappointed

hopeless

moody

sad

upset

i dropped my tears

once i passed my english paper 2

my tears swelled up from my eyes

i can't controlled them from falling from my eyes

this is the first time i wrote this such of worst essay

a childish essay

simple essay

an essay that primary student also able to write it

stupid grammar

stupid language

stupid description

I HATE MY ESSAY MUCH

but

what to do?

i already passed my sucks essay

nothing that i can do except praying

GOD BLESS ME

i not satisfied with my essay at all

my A fly from my hand

i can't feel its apprearance

normally i get A or seventy something in my english paper

but

now

maybe 50 marks also can't achieve

sucks

what happened to me

I CAN'T IMAGINE HOW IS MY RESULT

=(

19.11.2009

SPM

did i try my best to do my revision?

NO

did i try my best to do my responsibility well?

NO

spm approaching

but

what i did?

watch movie

sleep

eat

play

chit chat

i never study before

now only i keep on rush and rush

try to complete my revision

but

i know i can't

i'm totally lazy

i hate myself much!!!
STRESS

sigh

everybody please wish me

good luck for my exam

sigh

gonna study again

i want my As

my spm date : 18.11.2009

5.21 p.m

12.11.2009