我要被爱
我要好好地爱

我要的
你知道吗？
我要的
你收到了吗？

你
忘记了
你答应过我不再对我发脾气
你
忘记了
你答应过我不再用不好的语气对我说话

这一切
就只是当时为了安抚我心情的话语吗？
难道
这一切的这一切
都只是虚假的？

这两天
你又开始了
难道
我的感受
就只不过如此？
难道
我的感受
就只是我的感受？

到底
当一个人累到极点时
会变成怎样？
会变成
坚强？
懦弱？
麻木？
习惯？
沉默？
还是，无力反驳？

我
还是我
原有的那个我

你
不是你
不是一开始我认识的你
不是从前的那个你

我们
还是我们吗？

10.40p.m
03.07.2010

14th - 16th of July will be my first test in my form 6 life.
my monthly test.
>.<

long time never having exam or test.
i'm not used to it.
need to start study study and study.
i want to try my best to get a good result in it.
i promised myself not to get a worst result in it.
my first test~
sigh```

finally, make a decision to take both subjects.
but, just for temporary.
i will decide later.
=)
if i am hardworking enough, maybe i will take both.
haha
xD
maybe~but, the percentage of happening this is lower than 0.1%.
because i am a lazy student.
>.<
haha

but, i promised.
i will be more hardworking.
haha
xD
recently, noticed that i become more hardworking than before.
although i am still the lazy girl.

i want to score at least B in all subjects in the coming test.
hope that my wish will come true.
=D

and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my pretty kee.
yesterday night, all of us celebrated birthday for her.
countdown for her.
haha
xD
6 of us captured together again.
weeeeeeee
<3
happy sei!

10.21 p.m
03.07.2010

pity me.
my picnic plan had canceled.
due to i have to attend the motor course.
damn!
the uncle never tell me that i need to go ipoh on saturday.
my plan had spoiled by him!!!
>.<

you all heard before?
a girl that never ride bicycle before go to learn how to ride a motor?
ish~~
i hurt my leg.
i really don't know how to ride at all.
damn!
quite moody and sad.

i can't ride normally.
>.<
almost fall from the motor.
ish~~~
pity me.

na na na~
forget about it.
>.<
i want to be more hardworking.
start to aim for my stpm now!!
weeee~~
i want to score well in it.
>.<
ish~

chee lok yee
ganbateh nehx.

08.17pm
21.06.2010

full.
just finish my delicious dinner
ASAM LAKSA MAGGIE MEE
=.=

tomorrow will go to picnic with my boy and my besties.
weeeeeee
sure i will have a nice day.
ngek ngek.
xD

but, i need to prepare sandwich.
lolx.
sui kee bully me.
>.<
she prepared drinks for us.
T.T

i not sure what shape will my sandwich is at the end.
but, haha.
i sure that i can make a delicious sandwich for you guys.
weeeee
if not tasty, hiak hiak.
you all also need to eat it.

force you guys eat.
hiak hiak.
tomorrow wanna capture many photos sin.
hehe
xD
let even, rachel, jia hui and yun nam envy har sin.
blek.
=P
who call you guys don't join us.
heng!
:P
hahahahahahahahahahahaha


end up here.

09.57pm
18.06.2010

i promised myself need to study during this holidays.
but, i fail to do it.
until now, i also never read any books.
except those books that i need to use in tuition classes.

argh~
how come i'm so lazy.
i broke my promise.

i just study my undang only.
finally, i took my undang test.
i passed with flying colours.
haha.
i passed with 49 questions.
i just did wrong one.
=D
weeeeeee

stop here.
nothing to write anymore.
nights buddy.

i love my baby.
i love my dear.
i love my ji mui,
i love my baby dear ji mui.
=)



17.06.2010
10.41pm

tired day.

recently, flu and flu again.
ish!!

are you getting bored?
are you getting tired?
are you not so care anymore?

ish```
i hate this feelings
i hate i hate i hate!!!
what can i do?

cry?
shout?
or???

keep in my heart.
all in my heart.
>.<

01.31a.m
09.06.2010

ya.
you're correct.
maybe, i will totally agree with you.

one sentence.
really can change my mind.
you words really can do so.

your decision. . .
is that mine also?
your view. . .
is that mine also?
maybe.
but, i won't lost myself.

if that is your wish, i will do so.
if that is what you hope, i will do so.

man, please.
i want to be more tough.
before i success to be a tough girl, please don't hurt me anymore.
>.<
i can't stand it.


09.59pm
31.05.2010