study time

no more play time for me now

it is a promise to myself

i want to score well

i need to do so

it is a promise to myself

a promise to my parents

i can't let them have disappointed feelings on me

i can't

i need to let them proud of me

i don't want myself to be regret some day

i wish to score all As in my sijil pelajaran malaysia (SPM)

i wish to get flying colours in my exam

i wish to get JPA much!

i wish to

but, i know i can't

because i'm too lazy

i wasted too much of time

although now only i start to be hardworking

but

it also seems nothing will change

i really had no more time to do my revision

argh!

but i stil will try my best to score as much As as i can

muahahaha

CHEE LOK YEE

trust yourself

believe yourself that you can

confidence to yourself

13 A+ please come toward me

muahaha

i'm opening my arm to welcome you all

muahaha

i love you all much

can you all notice and feel my love?

can you?

hehe

never mind.

i will prove this to you all

i will prove that i really love you all much!

okay.

stop here

i need to prove my love now~

hehe

ganbateh nehx!

8.10 p.m

25.10.2009

untitle

long time never blogging here

don't know how should i start my blog

just now

hang out with soo

both of us go for a parade

九王爷游行

not as nice as before

quite bored this year

hu~
after that, both of us go to maha maju for our supper

hu~

getting fat again

next saturday will be our graduation day

hu~

i need to be more slim to wear my pretty dress

i don't want to show all my OIL

i want to be more beautiful on that day

hu~
chee lok yee

ganbateh

try your best to be as slim as you can

now i'm really fat dou~

argh~

gonna keep fit keep fit and keep fit

these two days

not feeling so happy

don't know why

start to feel stress for my spm

argh~

my head gonna burst soon

i need to study more

i get a satisfied result

but i know i lack of time already

argh~

stop here.

continue my revision.

nights

2.32am

25.10.2009

02.10.2009

原来

之前的都是一场误会

呵呵

现在想起

还蛮搞笑的

之前

还一直误会

他还爱她

原来

是他写少一个字

所以不爱便成爱了

呵呵

他

是认真的

而我都不确定自己想怎样

是习惯还是喜欢

没有一个明确的答案

处于疑惑中

就像蕙说那样

习惯和喜欢只是一线之差

只要越过一点点

结局就不一样了

其实

我早就知道

只是

我找不到答案

也许

我伤害了你

对不起

给点时间我好吗？

你对我真的很好

只是

我怕我伤害你

更怕被伤害

所以

让我有多点的时间考虑能吗？

今天

问蕙意见

她觉得我跟他不一样

她觉得他喜欢我比习惯多

反而觉得

我习惯比喜欢多

“我有喜欢吗？”

“有”

我也不清楚

也许旁观者清吧

今天

他告诉我说

庆功宴那天

其实他有种想握住我的感觉

听到后

没有抗拒的感觉

反而

有种开心的感觉

谢谢你对我的呵护和爱戴

再给点时间我好吗？

就再一点

02.10.2009

11.10p.m

一句话

one sentence

can change any results

one sentence

may bring joyness or sadness towards you

just one sentence

everything also can change

today

mr. XXX told me that he likes me

i just felt like "huh?"

don't know what response should i gave him

he asked me whether i like him too?

i answering nothing

because i don't know

suddenly

he said let's dating

again "huh?"

you told me that you don't want dating

but now you asked me this question.

questions mark flowing in my brain again.

but suddenly

you said that you still love her

again "huh?"

i don't know what happened to you

but loves is not a joke

please respect to it

but

suddenly

my tears dropped

i can't explain to myself what cause this happen

just except its appearance

but

i look down to myself

haha

yesterday

organised a concert celebration at my house

barbeque

actually i was not so enjoy in it

maybe its not so interesting as what i imagined

maybe i was too tired

but

when i was not happy my best friend accompanied beside me

thanks

just you can noticed that i was not happy

thanks for cheering me up

i having happy time with you

really

i do enjoyed in it

but

today

you spoiled my mood

how come?

anyway

forget about it

i just want to let all the things end up here

end up in my blog space

after the one sentence

there been a thick wall between us

you can't break it down

and

i won't let you to break it down also

i wish that it will appeared forever

that's the end for us

no more story

sorry

few hours more need to go for school again

my holidays had ended up too

12.04 p.m

28.09.2009

24.09.2009

just now

mr. P called me

we chit chatting through phone

having a lot of fun

he is funny

he is the one who always accompany me these days

he also is theone who care about me

damn appreciate our relation

you're my best friend

=D

today

erm, nope

should say yesterday

i was not feeling good at tuition there

to what you had done

why need to do that?

if you really don't want to let me know something

just go ahead

tell her when i'm not around there

but not in front of me

don't do this such of things

please care about my feelings

teng know it

really not syok for that

i think you should know this type of feelings

because we all know you well

if this happened to you

sure that you will feel angry and bo syok

i know i shouldn't be like that

but i really beh syok lar man!

please don't repeat it again!
argh~

but anyway

forget about it

now i feel better

at least won't feel not syok lur

because chit chat with teng and nam just now

hehe

we play see-saw at the playground nearby my house

hehe

quite happy

and add on chatting with mr. P just now

but i really do mind about what you had done just now

please

don't repeat it again!

i hate it!

please imagine that this happen to you

sure you feel beh syok also.

hu~

continue watch movie sin

hehe

excited now

wait for bbq night

a celebration for our concert

hehe

sure have a lot of fun ler

=)

and pau ling

happy birthday to you

1.51a.m

25.09.2009

心底话

谁听得见心里头最深处的一句话？

我听不见

“噗嗵噗嗵”声音的背后

隐藏着什么?

一句哈哈大笑？

还是哭泣声？

无奈

2.24a.m

21.09.2009

20092009

happy 20092009

today is 20.09.2009

today maybe a special date

but not a special day for me

just as usual

go for meeting with me st.john's committee

tuition

slept

that's all

siens dou

never study these few days

playing playing and playing

wasting my time to do something that useless

my mood affected by someone again

don't know what you thinking at all

why suddenly will like this and sometimes like that?

weird you know?

your caring and concerning makes me feel confused

stop doing it please

i know that you are not cup of my tea

and we are not suit for each others

as what i told my besties, we won't be couple

is that what i wish?

i think so

i also don't know

but for sure

for now, i not love you at all

yesterday

you asked me that whether i love you?

my answer is you think yourself

because i really don't know how should i answer you

but i know this answer is not important right?

sometimes your caring really make me feel touching

except my boyfriend

you are the one that will make me feel want to rely on

you are the one always listen to what i want

but i keep on tell myself all of this just an illusion

suddenly feel so upset

no reason

just moody

too much of things i want to say

but i don;t know how should i say it out

just stop here

lokyee is confusing

10.34p.m

20.09.2009