Sunday, September 27, 2009

一句话

one sentence
can change any results
one sentence
may bring joyness or sadness towards you
just one sentence
everything also can change
today
mr. XXX told me that he likes me
i just felt like "huh?"
don't know what response should i gave him
he asked me whether i like him too?
i answering nothing
because i don't know
suddenly
he said let's dating
again "huh?"
you told me that you don't want dating
but now you asked me this question.
questions mark flowing in my brain again.
but suddenly
you said that you still love her
again "huh?"
i don't know what happened to you
but loves is not a joke
please respect to it
but
suddenly
my tears dropped
i can't explain to myself what cause this happen
just except its appearance
but
i look down to myself
haha
yesterday
organised a concert celebration at my house
barbeque
actually i was not so enjoy in it
maybe its not so interesting as what i imagined
maybe i was too tired
but
when i was not happy my best friend accompanied beside me
thanks
just you can noticed that i was not happy
thanks for cheering me up
i having happy time with you
really
i do enjoyed in it
but
today
you spoiled my mood
how come?
anyway
forget about it
i just want to let all the things end up here
end up in my blog space
after the one sentence
there been a thick wall between us
you can't break it down
and
i won't let you to break it down also
i wish that it will appeared forever
that's the end for us
no more story
sorry
few hours more need to go for school again
my holidays had ended up too
12.04 p.m
28.09.2009

Thursday, September 24, 2009

24.09.2009

just now
mr. P called me
we chit chatting through phone
having a lot of fun
he is funny
he is the one who always accompany me these days
he also is theone who care about me
damn appreciate our relation
you're my best friend
=D
today
erm, nope
should say yesterday
i was not feeling good at tuition there
to what you had done
why need to do that?
if you really don't want to let me know something
just go ahead
tell her when i'm not around there
but not in front of me
don't do this such of things
please care about my feelings
teng know it
really not syok for that
i think you should know this type of feelings
because we all know you well
if this happened to you
sure that you will feel angry and bo syok
i know i shouldn't be like that
but i really beh syok lar man!
please don't repeat it again!
argh~
but anyway
forget about it
now i feel better
at least won't feel not syok lur
because chit chat with teng and nam just now
hehe
we play see-saw at the playground nearby my house
hehe
quite happy
and add on chatting with mr. P just now
but i really do mind about what you had done just now
please
don't repeat it again!
i hate it!
please imagine that this happen to you
sure you feel beh syok also.
hu~
continue watch movie sin
hehe
excited now
wait for bbq night
a celebration for our concert
hehe
sure have a lot of fun ler
=)
and pau ling
happy birthday to you
1.51a.m
25.09.2009

Sunday, September 20, 2009

心底话

谁听得见心里头最深处的一句话?
我听不见
噗嗵噗嗵”声音的背后
隐藏着什么?
一句哈哈大笑?
还是哭泣声?
无奈
2.24a.m
21.09.2009

20092009

happy 20092009
today is 20.09.2009
today maybe a special date
but not a special day for me
just as usual
go for meeting with me st.john's committee
tuition
slept
that's all
siens dou
never study these few days
playing playing and playing
wasting my time to do something that useless
my mood affected by someone again
don't know what you thinking at all
why suddenly will like this and sometimes like that?
weird you know?
your caring and concerning makes me feel confused
stop doing it please
i know that you are not cup of my tea
and we are not suit for each others
as what i told my besties, we won't be couple
is that what i wish?
i think so
i also don't know
but for sure
for now, i not love you at all
yesterday
you asked me that whether i love you?
my answer is you think yourself
because i really don't know how should i answer you
but i know this answer is not important right?
sometimes your caring really make me feel touching
except my boyfriend
you are the one that will make me feel want to rely on
you are the one always listen to what i want
but i keep on tell myself all of this just an illusion
suddenly feel so upset
no reason
just moody
too much of things i want to say
but i don;t know how should i say it out
just stop here
lokyee is confusing
10.34p.m
20.09.2009

Friday, September 18, 2009

my birthday celebration


see~ what i am doing. =_=


me and my birthday cake


all of us =D


=_= funny look


what espression is nam?


took in west lake


birthday's present from kee. haha


my birthday cheese cake. delicious

i love this pig most!

bin and me


teng and me


huh? what happened? man and me

kuso emo. haha


joe and me


hehe. kee want us to take this picture


soo and me.


nam and me


-.- what photo is this


kee and me


i'm extremely happy today!
i never been so happy for long time ago

18.09.2009 (8.30pm) - 19.09.2009 (2.00 a.m)
thanks a lot, my beloved dears
although it was late
but
this is not a problem
important is
you guys celebrated my birthday for me
i enjoyed the celebration much
at first
i really thought today was just a celebration for finishing examination
haha

at first,
we went to Big A Kopitiam
chit chat around there
captured here and there
having a lot of fun

i having a lot of fun with you guys
full of joy
but
the things that imperfect is
hui, one of my besties
can't join us today
=(

next location
WESTLAKE
don't know suggested by who
went there for cutting cakes
capturing and chit chatting there again
haha
they say i sot jor
just like a crazy and having mental's problem geh woman
haha
no idea
because i was too happy on that moment
dancing and turning round and round
haha
i think today we captured around 200 photos
haha
crazy right?

i believed that no one can describe how happy i am
the famous writer in this world also unable to describe it
although just a simple celebration
but just because celebrated with you guys
i already satisfied with it
a birthday cheese cake
a birthday song
that's enough for me
really

this year
i got a cheese cake again
haha
thanks soo for "informing" them
i really do love cheese cakes and chocolates
haha

kee
nam
man
teng
soo
joe
bin

kong ( our camera man)
thanks for all the things that you all prepared for me today
i really do appreciate in what you all had done
that's nice

great moment with you all.
i love you all much
again
i hope that we will be best friend till the end of my life
you all
located in my heart since long time ago
i love you

you guys delighted my life
cherish my life
painted my life and memories with colours
i can't live without you guys
you guys really do important for me

THANKS GOD
for giving this such of best present in my life
the best
you guys are the present that gave by God
you guys don't know how much i love you
but
what can i say is
i really do love you guys deep from my heart


thanks again for celebrating for me
>_<
muakxxxxxxxxx


lokyee was extremely happy today !!
=D


3.33a.m
19.09.2009

Thursday, September 17, 2009

找回自己

特地写给你的
呵呵
觉得奇怪吧?
其实
我们之间的关系没有像以前那么要好了
所以
并不清楚你发生什么事了
呵呵
所以
没什么意见可以给你
但是
只想让你知道
朋友无所不在
无所不在
呵呵
看着你的不落格
感觉上
你却少了真正的笑容
希望自己的直觉是错的
从前的那个坚强的你
去了那里?
那个不容易掉泪的你
去了那里?
勇敢地面对一切
找回你自己
一个真正的自己
04.01a.m
18.09.2009

不想长大

身边的事物
身边的烦恼
都随着自己年龄的增长而变得复杂
接触的事物越多
自然的
面对的东西就越多
而思绪就渐渐地变得复杂不堪
就像以前那样
一句简单的
“我喜欢你”
是多么容易得从口中说出
如今许要多少勇气
多少的考量
才能从口中吐出这一句话?
岁月不留人
时间无情的流去
怨得了谁?
感慨地说
“我不想长大”
3.41am
18.09.2009