Thursday, September 17, 2009

找回自己

特地写给你的
呵呵
觉得奇怪吧?
其实
我们之间的关系没有像以前那么要好了
所以
并不清楚你发生什么事了
呵呵
所以
没什么意见可以给你
但是
只想让你知道
朋友无所不在
无所不在
呵呵
看着你的不落格
感觉上
你却少了真正的笑容
希望自己的直觉是错的
从前的那个坚强的你
去了那里?
那个不容易掉泪的你
去了那里?
勇敢地面对一切
找回你自己
一个真正的自己
04.01a.m
18.09.2009

不想长大

身边的事物
身边的烦恼
都随着自己年龄的增长而变得复杂
接触的事物越多
自然的
面对的东西就越多
而思绪就渐渐地变得复杂不堪
就像以前那样
一句简单的
“我喜欢你”
是多么容易得从口中说出
如今许要多少勇气
多少的考量
才能从口中吐出这一句话?
岁月不留人
时间无情的流去
怨得了谁?
感慨地说
“我不想长大”
3.41am
18.09.2009

终于考完预考了
赫赫
不过真正的战争
现在才开始
呜~

不知何时开始
爱情
对我而言
只是一个形容感情的词汇

是我真的看得开了吗?
还是不愿意再去相信?
其实
问自己受过多少次伤?
真正的伤
我想
只有一次吧

那一次早已足够
已经足于自我于死地

细水长流?
还是
轰轰烈烈,刻骨铭心?
你会怎样选?
我能不能同时选两个
不过
怎么别人都说他们不能共存?
事实
真得如此?

心是空的吧?
不知何时开始
心里开始起了这个问题
但就是没有一个想要的答案
永远处于不确定的状态

我早已放弃回答这个问题

如今
没有特别的牵挂
没有特别的感动
也没有特别的回想过去
算是成功了吧?
赫赫

在我还未再遇到自己爱的人时
爱情
就请远离我吧

这段文字是给某个人的
我的部落格是我的地方
我爱写什么是我的事

我跟你已经是完完全全过去式的事
都一年前的事了
怎么咬着我不放?
怎么每当我对你的反感化为零时
你总是要把那些感觉拉回出来
没完没了
累不累

一个时常犯错的人
不但不改过
甚至还要一只勾起他人的错处
这样才会令你良心过的好点对吗?
才会让你自己觉得没那么内疚对吗?
别将我和你一起比下去
我和你不一样

至少之前
那段时间
我真的试过对你一心一意
只是你的幼稚和不成熟
让我实在受不了
这才是为什么我们分开的原因
不想多解释
你爱怎样想是你的事
反正
你就不是一个好男人

还有
别再说一些有完没完的话
既然你答应了对她好点
就别再三心两意了
有多爱我?
都是你要挽回面子的话
别傻了
不爱就是不爱
逞强些什么?

原来
我跟你之间的回忆是

应该是说骗局吧?
你的骗话实在多得不胜枚举

我却一点也不心痛
不难过
我想你也明白原因了吧?

好了
就这样


赫赫
期待
明天晚上
琪约了我们出去喝茶
好久没试过六个一起出动了
哈哈
除了昨天
赫赫

开心
友谊万岁!


4.48p.m
17.09.2009


Wednesday, September 16, 2009

失常

我失常
奇怪

是习惯了你的存在?
还是喜欢上了?
怎么
心情因你而起伏了?

别对我那么好

不想心动


11.07p.m
16.09.2009

16.09.2009

today damn syok
woohoo
just now went to pasar malem wit my 5 besties
kee
nam
teng
man
hui


kee drove us there by her butt butt car
hehe
happy moment along the way go to pasar malam
freaking funny

when we reached there
duh
we just stepped into the field
rain fall heavily
how come
=_=
so no idea lur
rushed back to her car and chatted inside the car
** funny **

wait for almost half an hour
rain still fall heavily
@_@
so we decided go to hui's house
gathering there
haha
seems like our exam had over
happy moment
i really do like and enjoy the moment gather with them
i love them much!

but most syok is
muahaha
today morning
6 of us gathered together in the hall when recess time
discussed about how to go pasar malam
lol
but we really do enjoy
and at that time
that miss XXX came again
try to join us
pity her
haha
none one of us bothered about her
but
the thing make me felt yucks is
" she hugging one of my besties "
duh
hou sum lar
nobody want to choi you then jau go away ler
still do this such things
let me feel more bo syok with you
muahaha
although she hugging one of us
but we still didn't give any response to her
muahahaha
because she really not our gangs
our topic is not suit for you!
muahaha
syok man!
at last she also gave up and back to her place
damn syok!
haha
i'm a bad woman right?
but as what teng said
she really not the type that can be one of our gang
because its seems weird

my mood is good
BEST
muahaha
6 of us also long time didn't hang out and gather together
today i really enjoy
hehe
whatever lur
you all are located in my heart since long time ago

tomorrow will be the last day of my trial
woohoo
at last i can say bye bye to my trial
but
the real war is waiting for me
the ending of the trial = the starting point of my WAR
wu~
T_T


10.32p.m
16.09.2009

Monday, September 14, 2009

thanksssssssssssssssssss

specially for someone ler
if not he say me yun wong him again
if not just blahs me ler
lolx
haha

yesterday
an unknown number message me and greeted me
at midnight 12.00
i asked who are you
then
that ba bei jing still called me to check myself wer
ish~
anyway
i still say thanks to him
see
how good is my manners
muahahaha

in this 24 hours
i thought this guy totally forget my birthday jor tim
still keep on blaming him in my heart
>_<
muahaha
sorry sorry
sorry for that
know you have my heart ler
thanks for greeting ler

touching ler
gam dong ler
tears almost drop from my eyes jor
haha
T_T
thanksssssssssssssssssssssssssss

see
i treat you so good ler
mr. 014- XXXXXXX
haha
you know i'm saying you right?

at last
praise har you sin ler
if not yao not happy ler
haha
"THANKS, LENG ZAI"
LOONG


he want me to add his name ler
=_=
haha



1.04a.m
15.09.2009

BIRTHDAY

14.09.2009
my birthday
a silent birthday
no celebration's birthday

first time
first year
without any celebration
without cutting any cakes
without hanging with my friends

why my birthday will fall on the trial exam seasons?
everybody also busy in exam

since 12.00 a.m
i received a lot of messages
a lot of wishes
even calls
i was so happy at that moment
extremely happy!
thank you
i really do appreciate what you all sent to me

but today
my mood was not so good
almost cried
maybe just because no any celebration
no cakes
stupid right?
but luckily still have someone sang birthday song to me
touching man!

chee wai
thanks a lot for preparing bread as my breakfast
haha
this is what he told me
" first time i prepared breakfast for others geh j er"
>_<
touching man!
although just a bread but it is so delicious for me!
thanks

secondly
sze yin
jun yap
ming chuan
thanks again for buying me a present
haha
two little bears
pairing
when i will get a partner just like the bears?

thai ming said he want to buy a triangel for me again wer
=_=
because he said the triangel that he bought for me last year is not work
because until now i also haven't dating yet
muahaha
sui gOr
anyway, he said later he will bought a present for me!
=D
thanks first lur~

and
jia ying
at last i opened the gift that you gave me last two weeks
hehe
thanks

and my dearest mah zai and daughter, rachel!
thanks for buying the t for me as my birthday present!
thanks a lot you guys really care about me
duh~
gam dong dou~

but
seems like still left something
a complete birthday song
a birthday cake
a birthday wishes
a birthday celebration

damn!
my mood is totally affected now!
a silly guy name lee kai choo
don't know who lai geh!
scolded me in msn
damn him!
don't know what happened
an annoying person
everytime also msn when i online
but never replied
suddenly scolded me wer!
sucks!
damn damn damn!
birthday still need to scold but an abnormal guy
suen ler
don't bother this type of nonsense guy
chi sin!
lee.kaichoe@yahoo.com
this guy
don't know who lai geh
@_@

suen ler
forget about it
my birthday end here?
sigh
ending with a sigh

anyway
nights

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to lokyee
happy birthday to you

a song for me

that's my birthday?

11.11p.m
14.09.2009