he told me to settle the problem.
but, i have no guts to ask the truth.
i'm useless!!!



or maybe i should listened what he told me.
not to think anymore.
just concentrate in my working.
but, hope that he will remember what he promised me.
not to tell others.
but, i trust that he won't tell anyone.
i trust him well!!!



sorry for disturbing just now.
anyway, thanks a lot!
thanks for become my listener.




hope that everything will get fine.
i really wish to.
i wish that there will always have a guy, a shoulder for me to lie on.




04.08a.m
13.02.2010

isty

迷失方向

前面的路，我该怎样走？
前面的障碍，我该如何一一斩除？


我的懊恼，谁懂得了？
我只想找一个避风港来聆听我的世界。
你，愿意当吗？



13.02.2010
02.34p.m

结束

假期结束了，剩下的却是复杂的心情。

今年，不能去亲戚家拜年，更不能与朋友嘻嘻哈哈地聚在一起非法赌博。

唯有在云顶那里看着人家赌博。

红包肯定也比往年很少很多。

可怜的我。

第一年不在自己的家乡过年，感觉好不自在~

少了新衣陪伴的新年感觉少了什么，换上了制服陪我度过这十五天。

我，不喜欢。

没有橘子，饼干，汽水，花生。

换来了浓浓的二手烟。

讨厌！！！

今天的心情，复杂的很简单。

比起从前，这算得了什么？

再复杂的心情都过了，这一点我会不习惯吗？

没可能。

不过，问自己的最内心。

到底自己是不是真的想习惯。

答案永远等于零~

反正，不重要吧？

最近，爱上了手写日记。

没办法~

云顶没的上网~

唯有用手代替。

很久没有书写了，虽然比较累，但是却觉得比较真实。

跟自己有更亲切的感觉。

不想做工。想一直留在金宝。

想时常吃妈妈煮的饭，妈妈煲的汤。

妈妈煮的糖水。

爱时常跟一班朋友出来喝茶的日子~

我怀念中学的生活

实在太想念以前的日子。

能回到过去吗？

如果可以时间倒流，我愿意！

13.02.2010

01.05a.m

life

这就是生活吗？告别了中学生涯的生活？

工作工作还是工作...

就没别的吗？

厌倦这种生活。想念中学时期嘻嘻哈哈又一天的中学生活。

沉闷

面对的，不再是老师。

每天对着一大堆赌了又赌的赌徒

粗口就像三字经一样背到滚瓜烂熟

手掌像铁钢那样硬，输钱就拍桌子，手一点都不痛吗？

吵死人

你们的肺时常都去过滤的吗？

我的可没有。

我还年轻，不想把我的肺给弄的乌烟瘴气，更不想让自己短命几年。

十个有八个都吸烟的。

女生样子再美都没办法啦，肺一点都不美了。

嘿嘿~

show off下先。

本人在training时期获得最高分，在整个training里获得97.5分。

那天我真的是爽到爆，开心到~

就像考到第一名的感觉。

人生中第二次的第一名。

爽死~ 呵呵

第一天进bid被AM赞。

开心开心~

他跟我说很久都没有看过第一天做工就将定的女生。

哈哈。

开心~

好了。

出去吃饭先，先写到这里。

=)

12.02.2010

07.20p.m

背后的故事

背后的故事

谁有兴趣？

背后的眼泪

谁会知道？

背后的心酸

谁能体会？

背后的呻吟

谁听得见？

背后的奢望

谁能实现？

姐妹们

才是我永久的依靠

这一个星期

我真的很开心

谁知道我好久没试过那么开心了？

谁知道我好久没那么尽心的玩了？

谁知道我最开心的时光就是跟你们5个在一起了?

谁知道我的心里其实是多么珍惜你们5个？

我爱你们

永永远远

我的姐妹圈圈只要你们5个

其实之前一直都想一上到云顶就跟你们5个拍大头贴，就只是我们六个，我不要其他人

每想到原来还有人看我的部落格

1.23 a.m

16.12.2009

actually blog just a place for me to say out my feelings.

no others meaning.

please don't misunderstand.

and girls

thanks for always support me in my life.

i love you.

=*

no title

sometimes, i really speechless.

CHEMISTRY

sigh~ at first i will expected i will score A in it.

but, what the...

i egt sick on the day before the exam and the day for chemistry paper.

fever, headache, feel wanna vomit.

=.=

why everytime also will sick during exam period?

i hate much!!!

i can't concentrate in my paper at all.

how can i score well?

SHIT!

i told my besties that i'm not feeling well.

but, they told me

" XXX more cham err"

"she gastric"

lolx. i'm not interest in her stuff.

she is not my gang okay?

i speechless.

i just need you guys' caring.

she just gastric, so what?

i also always gastric what.
during the exam, my sweat keep on flowing out from my body.

even i can't hold my pen properly because i didn't have enough of energy to hold it.

keep on felt dizzy.

but, who cares?

when i said it out to you.

you told me that she more pity and blahs.

even, when i telling you guys, you all can say about others things.

at that moment, i almost... cry~

but i still pretending nothing. keep on smiling to you all.

because of what?

because of you all are my besties.

the friends that are most important in my life.!

MOST IMPORTANT

anyone can care about my feelings?

i just hope to get " are you okay?" from you all.

just a simple sentences.

but, i felt quite happy because some of you asked me am i okay once finish exam.

besties, i love you all.

i just need you all.

not others.

but, i know that..

our relation not as close as before.

since she appeared.

i hate her appearance!

still i want to say that, for me, just can be friend.

but not besties.

and i really really hope that all of us can back to before.

always gather together.

just 6 of us.

is it impossible?

i don't know.

maybe

12.26 p.m

11.12.2009

actually, my heart is crying.