21.11.2009 SATURDAY

now feeling not good.

even feeling bad.

today texted with my besties man.

she is the one who sat with me in class this year.

both of us always chit-chatting and play in class.

i love her much.

now is the spm period.

no more time and chance for us to sit in our classroom to chat for our stuff.

i miss those days.

recently, i like to tell all my stuff to her.

she is my listener.

haha.

Man, you don't know how much i love you.

haha.

XD

today, we discussed about the friendship of 6 of us.

same view with me.

no so welcome the appearance of them.

because of their attitude.

i'm agree with man.

but, she not so care about this.

but she also felt that our friendship will be not as good as before.

i also worry for it.

damn!

i hate their apprearance!

i hope that we never move our places before.

i hope that they never sit near us before.

i hope that i can kick them out of my circle.

i really beh song with their apprearance.

i repeat again.

just friends.

and you won't be my besties forever.

in my life, i just have 5 besties.

EVEN CHONG YI MAN

ZUKI YAN JOE KEE

EUNICE YEONG YUN NAM

RACHEL SIN SEE TENG

LEE JIA HUI

others, sorry to tell you.

you are not my gang!!!

i love my besties!

21.11.2009

10.59 p.m

圈圈

就是不喜欢你们进入我们的圈圈

我

并不讨厌你们

只是

我不喜欢你们的加入

我

只喜欢我们六个一起的感觉

别问为什么

不喜欢就是不喜欢

没有理由

我自己也解释不到

可能是因为人合人缘吧

我们只能是朋友

不知道几时开始

你们的加入令到我们之间好像有了一丝丝疏远的感觉了

我

真的不喜欢

我有时宁愿走开

就只是因为她们存在

并不是我不想跟你们在一起

可能你们会说那是你的问题

所以

一直以来我都没有说出来

扮到若无其事

因为

我不想我们破裂

你们是我最珍惜的朋友

小雯

小婷（siu beng)

小慧 (siu fei)

小琪

小杨

就像你们说的那样

你们活在我的小小世界

所以请别用我小小世界的称号用在他们的身上

20.11.2009

02.03p.m

my english test

dull

despair

desperate

disappointed

hopeless

moody

sad

upset

i dropped my tears

once i passed my english paper 2

my tears swelled up from my eyes

i can't controlled them from falling from my eyes

this is the first time i wrote this such of worst essay

a childish essay

simple essay

an essay that primary student also able to write it

stupid grammar

stupid language

stupid description

I HATE MY ESSAY MUCH

but

what to do?

i already passed my sucks essay

nothing that i can do except praying

GOD BLESS ME

i not satisfied with my essay at all

my A fly from my hand

i can't feel its apprearance

normally i get A or seventy something in my english paper

but

now

maybe 50 marks also can't achieve

sucks

what happened to me

I CAN'T IMAGINE HOW IS MY RESULT

=(

19.11.2009

SPM

did i try my best to do my revision?

NO

did i try my best to do my responsibility well?

NO

spm approaching

but

what i did?

watch movie

sleep

eat

play

chit chat

i never study before

now only i keep on rush and rush

try to complete my revision

but

i know i can't

i'm totally lazy

i hate myself much!!!
STRESS

sigh

everybody please wish me

good luck for my exam

sigh

gonna study again

i want my As

my spm date : 18.11.2009

5.21 p.m

12.11.2009

study time

no more play time for me now

it is a promise to myself

i want to score well

i need to do so

it is a promise to myself

a promise to my parents

i can't let them have disappointed feelings on me

i can't

i need to let them proud of me

i don't want myself to be regret some day

i wish to score all As in my sijil pelajaran malaysia (SPM)

i wish to get flying colours in my exam

i wish to get JPA much!

i wish to

but, i know i can't

because i'm too lazy

i wasted too much of time

although now only i start to be hardworking

but

it also seems nothing will change

i really had no more time to do my revision

argh!

but i stil will try my best to score as much As as i can

muahahaha

CHEE LOK YEE

trust yourself

believe yourself that you can

confidence to yourself

13 A+ please come toward me

muahaha

i'm opening my arm to welcome you all

muahaha

i love you all much

can you all notice and feel my love?

can you?

hehe

never mind.

i will prove this to you all

i will prove that i really love you all much!

okay.

stop here

i need to prove my love now~

hehe

ganbateh nehx!

8.10 p.m

25.10.2009

untitle

long time never blogging here

don't know how should i start my blog

just now

hang out with soo

both of us go for a parade

九王爷游行

not as nice as before

quite bored this year

hu~
after that, both of us go to maha maju for our supper

hu~

getting fat again

next saturday will be our graduation day

hu~

i need to be more slim to wear my pretty dress

i don't want to show all my OIL

i want to be more beautiful on that day

hu~
chee lok yee

ganbateh

try your best to be as slim as you can

now i'm really fat dou~

argh~

gonna keep fit keep fit and keep fit

these two days

not feeling so happy

don't know why

start to feel stress for my spm

argh~

my head gonna burst soon

i need to study more

i get a satisfied result

but i know i lack of time already

argh~

stop here.

continue my revision.

nights

2.32am

25.10.2009

02.10.2009

原来

之前的都是一场误会

呵呵

现在想起

还蛮搞笑的

之前

还一直误会

他还爱她

原来

是他写少一个字

所以不爱便成爱了

呵呵

他

是认真的

而我都不确定自己想怎样

是习惯还是喜欢

没有一个明确的答案

处于疑惑中

就像蕙说那样

习惯和喜欢只是一线之差

只要越过一点点

结局就不一样了

其实

我早就知道

只是

我找不到答案

也许

我伤害了你

对不起

给点时间我好吗？

你对我真的很好

只是

我怕我伤害你

更怕被伤害

所以

让我有多点的时间考虑能吗？

今天

问蕙意见

她觉得我跟他不一样

她觉得他喜欢我比习惯多

反而觉得

我习惯比喜欢多

“我有喜欢吗？”

“有”

我也不清楚

也许旁观者清吧

今天

他告诉我说

庆功宴那天

其实他有种想握住我的感觉

听到后

没有抗拒的感觉

反而

有种开心的感觉

谢谢你对我的呵护和爱戴

再给点时间我好吗？

就再一点

02.10.2009

11.10p.m