Wednesday, September 16, 2009

16.09.2009

today damn syok
woohoo
just now went to pasar malem wit my 5 besties
kee
nam
teng
man
hui


kee drove us there by her butt butt car
hehe
happy moment along the way go to pasar malam
freaking funny

when we reached there
duh
we just stepped into the field
rain fall heavily
how come
=_=
so no idea lur
rushed back to her car and chatted inside the car
** funny **

wait for almost half an hour
rain still fall heavily
@_@
so we decided go to hui's house
gathering there
haha
seems like our exam had over
happy moment
i really do like and enjoy the moment gather with them
i love them much!

but most syok is
muahaha
today morning
6 of us gathered together in the hall when recess time
discussed about how to go pasar malam
lol
but we really do enjoy
and at that time
that miss XXX came again
try to join us
pity her
haha
none one of us bothered about her
but
the thing make me felt yucks is
" she hugging one of my besties "
duh
hou sum lar
nobody want to choi you then jau go away ler
still do this such things
let me feel more bo syok with you
muahaha
although she hugging one of us
but we still didn't give any response to her
muahahaha
because she really not our gangs
our topic is not suit for you!
muahaha
syok man!
at last she also gave up and back to her place
damn syok!
haha
i'm a bad woman right?
but as what teng said
she really not the type that can be one of our gang
because its seems weird

my mood is good
BEST
muahaha
6 of us also long time didn't hang out and gather together
today i really enjoy
hehe
whatever lur
you all are located in my heart since long time ago

tomorrow will be the last day of my trial
woohoo
at last i can say bye bye to my trial
but
the real war is waiting for me
the ending of the trial = the starting point of my WAR
wu~
T_T


10.32p.m
16.09.2009

Monday, September 14, 2009

thanksssssssssssssssssss

specially for someone ler
if not he say me yun wong him again
if not just blahs me ler
lolx
haha

yesterday
an unknown number message me and greeted me
at midnight 12.00
i asked who are you
then
that ba bei jing still called me to check myself wer
ish~
anyway
i still say thanks to him
see
how good is my manners
muahahaha

in this 24 hours
i thought this guy totally forget my birthday jor tim
still keep on blaming him in my heart
>_<
muahaha
sorry sorry
sorry for that
know you have my heart ler
thanks for greeting ler

touching ler
gam dong ler
tears almost drop from my eyes jor
haha
T_T
thanksssssssssssssssssssssssssss

see
i treat you so good ler
mr. 014- XXXXXXX
haha
you know i'm saying you right?

at last
praise har you sin ler
if not yao not happy ler
haha
"THANKS, LENG ZAI"
LOONG


he want me to add his name ler
=_=
haha



1.04a.m
15.09.2009

BIRTHDAY

14.09.2009
my birthday
a silent birthday
no celebration's birthday

first time
first year
without any celebration
without cutting any cakes
without hanging with my friends

why my birthday will fall on the trial exam seasons?
everybody also busy in exam

since 12.00 a.m
i received a lot of messages
a lot of wishes
even calls
i was so happy at that moment
extremely happy!
thank you
i really do appreciate what you all sent to me

but today
my mood was not so good
almost cried
maybe just because no any celebration
no cakes
stupid right?
but luckily still have someone sang birthday song to me
touching man!

chee wai
thanks a lot for preparing bread as my breakfast
haha
this is what he told me
" first time i prepared breakfast for others geh j er"
>_<
touching man!
although just a bread but it is so delicious for me!
thanks

secondly
sze yin
jun yap
ming chuan
thanks again for buying me a present
haha
two little bears
pairing
when i will get a partner just like the bears?

thai ming said he want to buy a triangel for me again wer
=_=
because he said the triangel that he bought for me last year is not work
because until now i also haven't dating yet
muahaha
sui gOr
anyway, he said later he will bought a present for me!
=D
thanks first lur~

and
jia ying
at last i opened the gift that you gave me last two weeks
hehe
thanks

and my dearest mah zai and daughter, rachel!
thanks for buying the t for me as my birthday present!
thanks a lot you guys really care about me
duh~
gam dong dou~

but
seems like still left something
a complete birthday song
a birthday cake
a birthday wishes
a birthday celebration

damn!
my mood is totally affected now!
a silly guy name lee kai choo
don't know who lai geh!
scolded me in msn
damn him!
don't know what happened
an annoying person
everytime also msn when i online
but never replied
suddenly scolded me wer!
sucks!
damn damn damn!
birthday still need to scold but an abnormal guy
suen ler
don't bother this type of nonsense guy
chi sin!
lee.kaichoe@yahoo.com
this guy
don't know who lai geh
@_@

suen ler
forget about it
my birthday end here?
sigh
ending with a sigh

anyway
nights

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to lokyee
happy birthday to you

a song for me

that's my birthday?

11.11p.m
14.09.2009

Friday, September 11, 2009

容不下你

首先
要给个热烈的掌声L
plak plak plak plak
为什么呢?
因为他是第一个发觉
也是唯一一个发觉的人
果然
只有他一个人看得出
或许
如果我没跟婷提过
她也不会发觉
还是L厉害
哈哈
我就是容不下他
就像L说得那样
我们比连续剧还好看
真的一个幸灾乐祸的家伙
不过
还是他眼利
今天
其实不是我不想和你们一起读书
只是
看到他坐在那里
我真的坐不下去
宁愿一个人自己静静的坐着读书
可是
心里就是有不愉和不安的感觉
只是
你们从来都没有发现到
原来在一年前
在友情里受的伤早已比在爱情里受的伤深
没有埋怨
只是心痛
有时忽冷忽热的态度
真得令我心痛到不行
能找谁说?
都是我心甘情愿
因为除了家人
你们五个早已是我生命中的不可缺少的主角
我就是那么喜欢你们!
缺一不可
常常
我的感受没有被顾虑到
是我太会掩饰自己
还是你们没有像顾忌的念头?
我不晓得你们知道我所写的一切后会有什么感想
我只希望我写的这一切不会惹起任何的争执或误会
你们
真的不知道你们对我多么的重要
你们
想时常环绕在你们之间
只为了得到一丝的注目
最近
我们都少接触了
我知道是我自己的问题
所以
我没有怨言
自私的我仍然希望她不会在加入我们
我讨厌我自己那样!
可是谁又懂我真正的感受?
无论在任何时候
看到你们开心
我真得很开心
看到你们难过
心真得疼了
我不想看到任何一个受伤
所以宁愿受伤的是自己
怎么泪掉了
怎么心痛了
我真得很想抱着你们五个哭
对不起
真的对不起
我不知道我自己为什么会酱
我不喜欢
我就是不喜欢自己将
我希望每一次给你们的感动
真的能让你们感动
换成最美好的回忆
我并不希望我的付出会换来什么回报
我也不希望我所作的一切换来一句伟大
我只希望
你们真正的快乐
早已足够了
希望她们不会看到我所写的一切
因为我不想惹起任何的误会
更不想带来任何不爽的感觉或冲突
这里
只是我唯一舒缓心情的地方
好朋友的代言人:就是我们六个!
今年的生日
怎样过
9.52p.m
11.09.2009

Thursday, September 10, 2009

E.S.T.

E.S.T.
English Science Technology
a subject that i not interest in.
i'm not the friend of e.s.t.
unfrotunately, both of us can't be friends.
because my english is poor.
add on, my science technology knowledge is worst!
if you ask me those infromation about technology.
sorry to tell you " I don't know"
it's too hard for me to memorise the function of computer or blahs.
i'm totally a stupid when facing computer.
i just know the way to surf the net and how to function microsoft word.
that's all.
mr. poh, my est teacher.
he told us that the essay for this exam will relate to computer.
when i get this information, i was just " what the. . . . . . "
COMPUTER
a common but strange thing for me.
Duh```
how come relate to computer.
actually, now i'm trying to surf the internet to get those info about computer.
but it's really too hard for me.
as what i said just now, " i'm totally a stupid when facing the computer"
i think i better follow my friend's suggestion.
read the textbook.
maybe will helped a bit~
not in mood to study my e.s.t.
for sure that, i can't score in this subject again.
but i really do wish that i can score well in this paper.
not just this paper, but others papers too!
i want to get high marks!
i wish to score with flying colours!
online and crapping with those XXX in facebook just now.
releasd some stress with crapping with them.
haha.
stop here.
without wasting my time, i need to study my E.S.T.
(although i wasted a lot of time already)
T_T
ganbateh!
last but not least, happy birthday my dear friend, ting han!
we knew each others since primary school.
we had been good friends since we are just 8 years old.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
11.28p.m
10.09.2009

Am i too greedy?

Am i greedy for something?
是我太贪心了吗?
心里只是要求一个像以往一样的生活
只属于我们六个的生活
我讨厌自己的自私
可是,我的头脑一直不由自主地控制着我自己去抗拒她的加入
最近
我都没再怎样跟你们聚集在一起
不是因为我再也不喜欢那聚集在一起的感觉
只是,我克服不到我自己
我就是不喜欢由他在
所以宁愿自己一个人坐着
或许
你们真的没留意到吧
也可能连唯一最清楚情况的婷也没发觉
我的眼泪一滴一滴的在心里流
仿佛早已成为心中的滂沱大雨
只是
我还没找到一个让我避雨的避风港
友谊早已在我心里占据重要的位置
你们五个更是我生命中最要好的朋友
我贪婪吗?
在学校没办法聚集在一起
我也唯有突如其来的一封信息来带给你们一丝的关怀
信息中来平衡我们最近谈不到的话题应该不算过分吧?
对不起
真得很抱歉
我真地接受不到她的存在
我也不喜欢自己的自私
但是
他之前对我的态度
我实在不能接受她成为我们六个人中的第七个
心里交叉着的心情
谁能懂?
我心里担心的一切
我都不能告诉你们
谁能明白我?
我不想被取代
心中下着的雨
何时才能冲破我心里的障碍?
何时才能让我不再胡思乱想?
多希望你们能不由自主地想起我
主动过来找找我
哪怕那天会是我开心的一天了
5.19p.m
10.09.2009

Sunday, September 6, 2009

考试

预考
似乎并不像想象中那么难
感觉上读了就一定会
可惜
需要读的我都并没有读
能怨谁?
暂时考了5科
国语
英语
历史
道德
数学
但是
还有9个科目等着我
预考怎么都要考体育和sivik?
认为我们太得空了吗?
有种无奈的感觉
=-=
上个星期算是最轻松的一个星期吧?
至少除了历史以外
其他的也不怎么需要背
道德也只许要背那36题而已
想快快把试考完
不用每天压力缠身
辛苦
今天
哭了
高级数学太多不会了
生气自己怎么那么笨
怎么那么懒
以前
从来都没有想过原来数学可以是那么难
可以是那么复杂
眼泪抹干后,还是得继续温习
时间
不够用
谁可以做下好人牺牲下自己的时间让一让给我
好让我把那读不完的书一一给温习完
只想在考试中获得佳绩
其他的暂时不想想
最近的心情
中中的
没什么起伏
只是今天,终于忍不住流下泪
从小就对成绩要求高的我怎样不给自己压力?
不过,庆幸的是
最近有你来陪伴着我
好久没有一个人能在我心情低落时能逗我笑一笑了
喜欢上了吗?
不晓得
更不想去想
喜欢与不喜欢重要吗?
还只不过是一种形容词
不过,还是谢谢你对我的呵护
其实
我不希望有任何的外人介入进我们六个里
朋友
是没问题
可是
要加入我们还是免了
我坦诚
我就是不喜欢!
我只要我们六个在一起!
呼~凌晨2.31分
睡仙在呼唤我的睡意
可是
我得撑下去
不让自己倒下
发奋!
加油
2.32a.m
7.9.2009